Dear Southclarkson, I can't imagine the pain you must feel, and my heart goes out to you now. Fancy would never blame you for what happened. She knows that you would never, in a million years, have done anything to harm her. If there had been any way for you to know what could happen, you would have moved mountains to have prevented it. I feel your sorrow in every word you've written. I agree with reovi about the cat you saw while talking to your mom. That was a sign from Fancy, letting you know that she is fine and running free now forever. I've asked my Bridge Kitties to snuggle up with her and make sure she's extra comfortable in her new world. Bless you for loving Fancy so well, and for treasuring her the way you did. Even though her life here came to an abrupt end, she knew a lifetime of love while she was with you. As time passes, I hope and pray that the horrifying images will fade and be replaced with the beautiful images of her as the healthy, happy cat she always was. In this case, I would definitely recommend looking at as many pictures as you can as often as possible. You need to fill your mind with images of her as a healthy, happy girl. The tears will flow like a river at first, but eventually you will find the gratitude for having had the gift of her presence in your life. As a last note, and with no intention of touching on a delicate subject, I do want you to know that the one who suffered at the end was you, not Fancy. She might not ever have been aware that anything ever happened. It was quick for her, and you are the one who suffered the trauma of what you witnessed. I wish there were a way for me to sweep that memory away for you. I can tell by the way you have expressed your feelings about life with Fancy that your love for her is never-ending. Hold on to the thoughts of that love with all your might. It will last forever. You, your family and your beautiful Angel Fancy are all in my thoughts and prayers, and I'm sending you virtual hugs of comfort and understanding.
My heart is battered and bruised, but I will not let it break. It holds such precious cargo, I must protect it now. (Susie Squillions)
"Memories of loved ones are like songs in our soul." Margaret Wakeley
BUDDY GUY AYRES~LYNCH'S RESIDENCY:
KING BING THE GOD CAT'S RESIDENCY:
In one of the stars, I shall be living.
In one of them, I shall be laughing.
And so it will be as if all the stars were laughing when you look at the sky at night.
~ The Little Prince, Antoine de Saint-Exupery