Thank you both for your kind comments! It means a lot. I tried to look at some positives, I had a lovely dream one night where she snuggled onto my pillow which she always loved doing, it felt so real, I could feel her pushing me off my pillow and down the bed! Dad also said a few weeks ago we had a lovely sunny day, he looked out the window to find the last rays of the afternoon sun had landed solely on where she's buried. I don't really believe in an afterlife or anything but it gave me comfort that she could bask in the sun again, another one of her favorite past times.
Some days the grief is worse than others, sometimes I wake up feeling at peace with her passing and other days I feel so sad that she was taken too quickly. It gives me comfort to know my family fought for her and she was so brave and patient until the very end. When we took her in we could have been seen to save her. It was definitely her who saved us! That's a lot more than what some cats get. Also her spirit in the house has been carried on by our other two gorgeous cats. Clove was never really too friendly towards other cats but in her older age she did enjoy sunning herself with them next to her in the garden. She also used to perform her sentry duty every night without fail, she couldn't sleep unless she'd checked all the vantage points downstairs for feline invaders! Now our other two cats perform this little task every so often. I did miss her on my birthday today. The weather has been fairly miserable today, otherwise I would have gone to the garden for a little visit. I haven't ventured out there since we buried her just over three weeks go. I only got back from uni on Friday so I may pop out on christmas eve. Thank you again for replying, I think I tend to bottle my emotions up and it has done me the world of good to be able to talk to family and friends and this website too. So sorry again for the loss of your companions, I'm sure they are all watching over us somewhere, their little hearts so full of love.
30/11/2014 Sweet dreams, Clove. I'll love and miss you always.