I'm so sorry about your Rasta. I share your pain and heartbreak, and I know the others here do too. I'm devastated after losing my Buddy suddenly and unexpectedly on Saturday night, I feel guilty and it's so hard to function. But I do think Jan is right, that if 3 of the 4 vets you consulted didn't recommend surgery, it's likely that it wouldn't have helped, and may have just caused more suffering. So please don't blame yourself. I haven't had any dreams yet about Buddy, or signs from him, but I desperately hope to... and I hope I have dreams like the ones that Bigcatsdad had. When my dad died 1.5 years ago, months went by before I had any dreams about him. But then I did, and it was wonderful and comforting. Please keep coming here to share your feelings and get support and understanding from others who really, truly know what it's like. Sending you hugs...
Cindy (Buddy's mama)
Cindy (Buddy’s mama)
My baby Buddy 5/4/10-3/7/20, rescued March 2011 My sweet Mandy 11/27/91-11/2/10, rescued November 1992 My beautiful Barney 4/28/73-9/7/92, adopted May 1973