@Mistysmama: Do you mind share your "visits" with me?
I have been begging Ludwig to tell me he is ok since he died, and was hoping for a feeling of relief or a feeling of the pain inside me to reside alittle maybe....
I sat down for a second yesterday at the terrasse looking out on the empty garden, and suddenly white butterflies appeared... First one, then another one, then a third one... I also saw a big black with orange spots, and a smaller orange with black spots. I have never seen or maybe noticed this before in my garden, and the white ones stayed for maybe 15 minutes... it was odd, cos i wasnt sad when they were there. When they left i started crying again, thinking it was a sign from Ludwig... and then back to thinking im indeed going crazy....Im openminded (now..) to anything, and i just feel lost..
I woke up this morning from a dream about him, we were together and i was aware that he had died, but i could feel his fur, and i was hugging him... and he was fine...
Am i loosing my mind (crying again now...)?
No you are not losing your mind. Grief breaks us up. It hurts like nothing else. Let the feelings flow out, and try not to be scared.
It is a very short time since Ludwig passed. I was fit for nothing for a few weeks.
Two weeks or so in, I had a couple of dreams about my girl, and later with hindsight, realised they were probably "visits", but I was too deeply disturbed and upset to know what was going on, or that my girl might be trying to reach out to me.
But it was almost exactly a month later that one evening (and for more or less the first time I was actually concentrating on something else when it happened ! I was watching a veterinary program)
Well suddenly I sensed my Misty's love, real and strong in the room with me, then it was like it rushed into my Heart and curled up there. I could feel her character, all the love in her, and some joy and freedom from her. It was very beautiful.
For a few moments it was like she'd never gone anywhere, and it was just like the two of us cuddling up....best way I can describe it.
So it wasn't that I got any special "signs", it was just that I felt her character and presence, and have done many times since. Sometimes stronger than other times.
I have heard though, that they need time to adjust to their new environment first. Then they very often will try one way or another to let us know they are okay.
It might be different kinds of communication though, for different Souls.
Sometimes they can also be with us, right beside us for a little while after passing, only because we are so upset we might not know they are there.
So what I learned from her is that there was no worry or hurt in her about my tears and my grieving. I sensed maybe something protected her from the worst of my grief?? I don't know. But she never seemed distressed when I sensed her.
I also learned that it was the simple love between us that bridged the gap between this world and the next. That simple heart-felt love which we had always known.
Nothing more complicated, and no need to be "psychic", Just Love. And a quietness of mind.