Cas....keep coming here everyday. Keep talking, keep remembering, and it will get better. I'll be honest, it took me months to stop crying atleast once a day. I still visit his memorial each time I'm out in the yard. It's beautiful under the tall cedars with St. Francis there to watch over him. I also have to confess that I did run right out and get myself another baby. Same make and model...a white poodle. There was something that struck me when I saw him and knew I had to make him mine. He's not my Juji, much different, but I do love him so much. As a matter of fact, he's everything poor Juji was not. Juji was only my dog, very nervous, and wasn't social with new people. In a way, he was quite a sad little mess, I even considered putting him on meds at one point, but just couldn't do it. I loved him just the way he was, and he loved me with all my faults...that whole unconditional love thing is amazing. My new boy, is totally the opposite and I always think that maybe it was fate the way he came along, and maybe, since he is so carefree and loving, that Juji actually came back as BooBoo (his name is another story) now able to be free. Who knows. What I do know in my heart is that he is free now, in heaven. I know he has peace and continentment (now I'm crying again). I know I'm rambling on here....sorry. I do have a point (I think). Oh yes....let yourself grieve, but also let love back into your heart. First start with the wonderful memories, they will hurt at first, then you will notice the smile that comes from the memories. And then, when you're ready, let another furbaby into your arms. There's nothing like that feeling (Nope, not even your partner has the ability to make you feel that good). I hope you and your partner find strength with each day....take care. Oh, and I also hope I didn't bore you with my love story. I just makes me feel better to talk about it.