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Hi Bubs,

It’s Friday. We made it. Another tough week but we’re at the weekend. Mommy has decided to go talk to a therapist. There’s just so many things going on right now I think someone who has a subjective view would be nice to talk to. Mommy needs to be strong, be happy. I know you would want me to do this. I had a phone consult today and brought up losing you. It brought me right back to that day. The tight throat, the uncontrollable tears, the heavy weight on my chest. I told her you were my rock. You were there for me so many times. And she got it. She said we treat these animals as our children. I’m looking forward to meeting her. Keep me in your thoughts bud. Please give me strength.

I’m going to head to bed now booty bear. I love you so so so much. Keep me close. One day we’ll be together again. I wish you were here. I wish Avery knew you more. I’ll always tell her about her sweet brother who always watch over her. You’re the sweetest.

I miss you my little man...

XOXO, Love Mommy 💜

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Hi Bubba,

Happy Caturday little man. It’s a beautiful day here. Perfect weather. Feels like fall.

I had my first therapy session today. I talked about you. How I miss you. You were my rock. How I didn’t expect to lose you so soon. It was hard. I cried a lot but I don’t think I’ll ever stop crying over you. I told her how bright your presence was. How loving you were. How you were the opposite of what you think a cat would be like. Just the friendliest happiest little dude ever. I love you so much my sweet boy.

I took a picture of your rose today! I’ll attach it. It’s as bright and vibrant as you!

Off to take care of Av! She’s up from her nap.

I miss you my little man...

XOXO, Love Mommy 💜

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Hi Bubs,

Today was an eventful day. Lots of errands and then I took Av for a walk at the park/lake. I think the fresh air got to her. She didn’t make it home awake lol!

I’ve been missing you a lot bud. Lola has been doing a good job of cheering me up. She’s the best cuddle bug at night. I miss your cuddles a lot though. You both have such different styles of cuddling. Yours was I’m here, you can lay on me. Lola likes to flop on me lol. I do have to say she’s pretty patient in the morning with food unlike you were. That 3am - 5am wake up call was rough. I miss it though. I miss and love you tons.

Here’s a picture of your rose. Not sure if you remember but it’s called a Remember Me rose. It’s perfect for you bud. So vibrant like you.

I’m going to go lay down. It’s been a long day. I love you so so so much! I wish I could hug you tons!

I miss you my little man...

XOXO, Love Mommy 💜

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Dear Bubs,

It's another Monday. The weekends fly by fast. I hope you liked the pictures of your flowers. I look at them often. They're so bright like you. I hope you're doing ok. I hope you're free from pain. I hope you're eating all the yummy food your belly desires. I hope you're playing so so much and bouncing so high. I miss you my handsome pants. Your sister Lola is doing well. She's put on a little weight since you had to say "see you for now" but she's doing well. She's been a great cuddle bug at night. I have to go do some work but I just wanted to tell you how much I love you! I'll never stop loving you!

I miss you my little man...

XOXO, Love Mommy 💜

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Hi Little Man,

Mommy is exhausted tonight so I just wanted to hop on here and tell you that I miss you sooo much and that I love you sooo much. I still can’t believe your gone. I still have your picture on the background of my phone. I still can’t believe you’re not here with me. It still doesn’t seem real.

I’m heading off to bed.

I miss you my little man....

XOXO, Love Mommy 💜

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Hi Bubs,

I just realized I missed the Monday Night Candle this week. I’m so sorry. Things have just been so crazy. No excuse though.

I had a pretty rough day thinking about you. Mostly because I was having an anxiety/panic attack and you would calm me down. I struggled. Nothing calms me down like you. You were simply magic. I don’t know how you did it. I hope you heard me talking to you. I put my hand on your ashes. I still can’t grasp that you’re gone. That you’re those ashes. It just doesn’t seem possible. You were young. It’s just not sitting right with me. You were so vibrant. And then gone.

I’m starting to get upset thinking about it all again. I know these feelings won’t go away soon.

The deer were back a lot today. Right before I went to therapy. It’s like you know. You send them. Thank you so much little man. Thank you for sending me the strength. I love that you send me these signs. You’re the best.

I’m going to head to bed sweet handsome pants. Mommy loves you so so much!

I miss you my little man...

XOXO, Love Mommy 💜

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Hi Bud,

It’s another Thursday. The dreaded Thursdays. I miss you so much. You were the greatest little man I could have ever asked for. It’s been a really challenging and tiring week. My brain is just over it. I wish you were here with me on the couch. It’s so hard because so many things you used to do are fading. You not being here is becoming normal yet it still feels so wrong. When will this ever feel ok?

I’m going to head to bed. Mommy is exhausted. I love you so very very much. You’re my heart. You’re still my world...I hope you’re ok!

I miss you my little man...

XOXO, Love Mommy 💜

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Hi Bubs,

It’s Friday! We made it. Pretty brutal week. So happy it’s over. I’m looking forward to the weekend. Wish it was a long weekend though. My brain is exhausted.

I hope you’re doing ok little man. I miss you so so much. I love you so so much. I wish you were here laying next to me on the couch right now so I could lay my head on your belly and then you would curl in or roll upside down. Such a sweet little dude.

Off to make some din din. I miss seeing you walk around this house.

I miss you my little man...

XOXO, Love Mommy 💜

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Keep those Milo notes comin', Jackie.  I don't comment (very often), but I love reading them.  I hope they're even a little bit therapeutic for you.
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I also love reading your notes and decided to start doing that myself. Hopefully, it will help me deal with my little baby being gone:
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Hi Handsome Pants,

I’m sitting here in Av’s room where I write you most of the time. The last 8 months of your life here you were with us a lot in this room. I remember getting it ready for Avery and you would always be in here hanging out with me in a fabric bin. When she came and I was feeding her or sleeping in her chair holding her because of her reflux, you were in here. Laying on her playmate most of the time. You were our protector. Our sweet little protector. Your heart was so big. You knew exactly what you were doing. I miss you so much my baby boy. The memories have me in tears as I’m writing this. You were taken too soon...way too soon. I never thought I out time would be that short. I know everyday was a blessing but not even 10 years with a sweet soul like yours is just so short of time. I am so lucky to have had you. To be your mommy I forever cherish our time together. I wish I could have given you more time at the last 8 months of your life. I knew in my heart ...I knew that something like this was going to happen. I dreaded it. I feel guilty because of it. I never wanted you to feel as if you’re being replaced. No one could ever replace you or my love for you. You were just the most specialist little man I could have ever asked for. I miss you and love you so much it hurts. It still hurts. I don’t think it ever will stop hurting. I don’t think life will ever feel right again. For those 8 months I felt like I had so much. And then you were taken from me. I think about you a lot Bubs. I hope you know and feel that. The deer haven’t been here in a few days. They were here a lot before then.

Time to go hang out with Loli. She misses her bro. We all miss and love you.

I miss you my little man...

XOXO, Love Mommy 💜

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Hi My Sweet Little Man,

It's Sunday night...I can't believe the weekend is over yet again. I saw your deer today. You must have known I needed you. It's been so hard. Thank you for showing me you're still with me. Mommy didn't sleep well last night so I'm going to head to bed shortly. I just wanted to wrap a few things up for work in quiet. Av is getting her two top teeth so needless to say she's been quite clingy and upset. Rightfully so! I wish I had some of your snuggles. I miss them so so much. I miss you so so much. I love you so so much. You were my one in a million. Your sweet little orange face. Beaming with light. Always so happy. Seriously I couldn't get you pissed if I tried. Well ok maybe 1000 Mommy kisses but you still took them and loved them. You just loved being loved. And I just loved loving you.

I hope you're doing ok and enjoying the RB. I'm sure not being in pain is a relief. I wish I knew you were in pain. I would have helped you anyway possible. I love you my handsome man...

I miss you my little man...

XOXO, Love Mommy 💜

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Hi Baby Boy,

I missed it again. The Monday Night Candle Ceremony. Please forgive me. Mommy’s brain is a bit scattered lately.

Today has been beyond difficult but thank you for the little reminder that you’re close. I saw the deer near the creek. You always know when to send me signs.

I miss you so much. Lola has been amazing at cuddling and helping Mommy. I just still can’t believe my little baby boy isn’t here. It was 3 months last Friday. 3 months. It feels like forever but yet those images of those last moments with you are so vivid. I miss holding you. I would have kept holding you forever if I could. You were the most amazing cuddle bug. My anti-anxiety. It’s almost as if you had magical powers. The fact that you fit in a 6” by 6” box still doesn’t seem real. I don’t even think your head would fit in there. I love you so much my Ty Ty. So so much. Please give me strength through these tough days. I wish I could have given you my health back in June. I wish I could have saved you like you saved me so many times...

I miss you my little man...

XOXO, Love Mommy 💜

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Oh look at that sweet boy.  I love when they do the kitty curl and cover their little faces.
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