Guilt is part of the grieving process. I went through this a ton the first few days I lost both Mija and then London. First off, Mija had kidney disease. I beat myself up saying maybe I should have had all her teeth removed sooner (most of them were removed except for five) and what if it's my fault that bacteria got into her system and she got kidney disease? The problem with guilt is that it's misplaced. I couldn't prevent Mija aging. I also felt guilt because I fed her renal food. Did she hate it? She ate it, but what if I had tried something else? I had to euthanize both my dogs, so it's extra hard.
London was a 15 year old Golden Retriever who died three days after Mija. Yes, three days! Boy, I am filled with guilt over this. The vet found a tumor in her stomach area either her spleen or liver and it was most likely cancer. Could I have had her operated on? Should I have put her on fluids instead? Did me being stressed and Mija dying contribute to London's death? Please don't beat yourself up. We love our furkids so much it's easy to assign blame to ourselves if any change happens and they get sick and die. Your baby was loved and didn't die just because you moved.
Mija, Chihuahua: 2004-2019
16 years London, Golden Retriever: 2005-2020 15 years Mom to Misty, Sango, Tami, Abby, Kawaii and Pepita the Chihuahua