Does anyone have any advice on coping with grief after euthanizing a companion?
Today was my final day with my best friend. The vet had told me he only had a week or two left to live, and because of the diseases he was suffering, it wasnt going to be a peaceful ending. Although my friend still kissed me, still tried to enjoy life, I made the decision to put him to sleep, because I couldn't bear to see his health decline any farther. I know people say this is the final act of love, but I am still aching and probably will be for a while. The house already feels empty, my heart feels empty knowing I cant just walk up and kiss him or pick him up, that I wont ever see him in the living room again. I had him for 8 years, since my 16th birthday, and he has always brought me happiness in the toughest of times. I hope I find some way to move on, I will always remember him but things are going to be so hard without him. I pray I will see him again. The vet assured me that this was in his best interest, but I cant help to feel selfish and want one more minute or one more day with him. It has only been 2 hours he has been gone ): only 2 hours since my last kiss, and I know that the time will add up. I hope that he forgives me, and I hope that I can forgive myself.