Reading this I see so much of myself currently. "Trying to survive." That is exactly how things are right now. Trying to go on for the rest of my family when I am in such tremendous pain. I miss my sweet Baylee just as much now as the day she passed. I know how hard it can be to find pleasure in anything anymore carrying around such guilt and hurt. Christmas was absolutely painful this year to go through and the New Year was not any easier. My heart goes out to you. I pray we all find peace somehow. I try to take it one day at a time and I keep hearing time will heal...I wish I could say I believe this. Time doesn't exactly heal pain, it just makes it where you learn to cope. It is hard to lose a great love of your life. One of the hardest loses I have ever endured. I am thankful for this forum and that there are people who care and people I can connect with. We are always here for you Dalidog. I pray things get a little easier for you. Blessings.
"And can it be that in a world so full and busy, the loss of one creature makes a void so wide and deep that nothing but the width and depth of eternity can fill it up!" ~Charles Dickens Angela