Oh, my heart is breaking for you, reading this. It's completely understandable that you're feeling so awful. But please, please don't blame yourself. What happened wasn't your fault. When that first incident happened with Sarabi, you responded with love, and did what seemed best at the time. There was no way to know for sure if it would happen again. I understand the guilt you feel, having made the decision to euthanize her after it happened again. You were in a no-win situation each time, and already grieving the sudden loss of a cat each time. Cuddle with Nahla, give her extra love, let her love you. She will forgive you, I promise. And even if it feels like you can't do it right now, please do forgive yourself. Sometimes things happen that we can't foresee or control, and they force us to make decisions that are gut-wrenching but necessary. Be good to yourself. Sending you hugs...
Cindy (Buddy's mama)
Cindy (Buddy’s mama)
My baby Buddy 5/4/10-3/7/20, rescued March 2011 My sweet Mandy 11/27/91-11/2/10, rescued November 1992 My beautiful Barney 4/28/73-9/7/92, adopted May 1973