@Camilla and @Jenny29
I’m so sorry for both your losses. I know exactly how you feel. My beloved Pecan, my beautiful and loyal Cockapoo Pecan passed away unexpectedly just over 14 weeks ago. She was healthy and happy all her life. She had sensitive ears (after series of tests and medications they said she had allergies) and used to scoot something specially when she came home from the groomers. I would keep both areas clean and dry and she seemed comfortable. She was walking, hiking, eating, drinking, jumping up and down everyday so I thought she’s healthy and I told need to rush her to the vet for every little thing. But I was planning to take a her for her vaccinations and a full check up after the pandemic. Now I can’t stop blaming myself and thinking maybe if I took her she would still be here today. She deserved to be here. She was my soulmate, my best friend, my confidant, my therapy dog, my hiking/walking partner. We were together 24/7 and it felt like I knew her for ages. She was only 9. On Thursday March19 she was happy and healthy all day. She wasn’t herself around 6:30pm she was just tired and low energy but she was drinking, ate a little and even jumped on the couch to sit beside me but she kept hiding. I called a few vets and they told me it’s a good idea for her to be seen but just monitor her and if she doesn’t get better take her to the vet. She was fine and I kept an eye on her and didn’t leave her side. I was holding on to her. She fell around 2:30 in the morning when she wanted to
follow me and shortly after her breathing changed so we rushed her to the emergency and she passed away as soon as we got there. They said either heart attack, aneurysm or stroke possible caused by a hidden cancer. I could not leave the bed for 3 weeks and I still feel guilty and cry everyday. She was full of life but left me in matter of hours. Please know that you are not alone here and I’m here if you need to share your thoughts.
i believe they come to our life’s when we need them the Most and leave with our best interest at heart. We just can’t see it right now.
im praying for both of you and sending you love. Please be kind to yourselves and take care. It takes time.