Hi RubysMom, first of all I am so very sorry for your loss. Staffy`s are wonderful dogs - very gentle, loyal and loving, and I know just how heartbroken you are right now. We made the decision to have our little dog put to sleep almost 2 and a half years ago, and it was the hardest thing I`ve ever had to go through - the guilt is just unbelievable, even though deep down you know it was the kindest and only thing to do. You did everything possible to help Ruby - and it is just horrible seeing our babies in pain - but letting them go really is the last gift of love we can give them... That is when all the "what ifs" start though, and I know I would go through every possible scenario with my dog - only to come to the same conclusion that trying to prolong his life any more was only for my benefit... Please know that the way you feel is normal - the feeling of letting them down is one we probably all feel here - but you will be able to get to a more peaceful place when you will see that every decision you made was in Ruby`s very best interests. Ruby would have known you were with her at the end, and that would have brought her great comfort - but for now you are grieving the loss of your sweet girl. The first few weeks are so hard - I think I was in a state of disbelief for the first week or two before it really sank in - but coming here to this forum and knowing I was not alone in the way I was feeling helped me so much, just as I hope it helps you.
Once again, I am so sorry...