michaelmanning

I am writing this to give hope and comfort to those of us who have been devastated by the loss of a precious furbaby. I lost my Mr. Higgins last week, on 3/24/2010. He lost his life by drowning in our pool. I found him. I have been wracked by guilt and have suffered almost beyond my ability to cope. I rescued Mitter two years ago, after having to put my beloved TT to sleep, after 15 yrs of love. He saw me through it, bringing smiles and so much joy. He was a 9yr old tabby Persian who had just lost his dad. We needed each other. I gave Mitter all he needed, including his freedom to enjoy the back yard. He gave me what I needed. And I miss him so.
I am a Christian who believes that Mitter is in Heaven. Even that belief was not enough to console me. I couldn't eat and had to self-medicate to sleep.
I lost 5lbs in 5 days. I felt as though I was wasting away. Indeed, I wanted to. Two days ago, I received a call from a dear friend. She had led me to Christ 13yrs ago. She lived out of state, in Oregon. I am in Arizona. She said she knew I was carrying a heavy burden and was filled with guilt. I told her about Mitter. She told me God did not want me to carry that burden. That Mr. Higgins was happy and free. I was just bawling. She told me to get down on my knees and to raise my hands to God and pray. She told me to imagine I was lifting Mitter up to Jesus and giving him to Him. Then she prayed for my peace, the peace of Christ. I did. Throughout the day, my burden got lighter. Whenever those awful thoughts and images came to mind, I would see me lifting Mitter up and giving him to Jesus. I have the peace of Christ now. That next morning, yesterday, my wife said you look different. I told her my face and eyes no longer hurt. The pain of carrying his death had been replaced by the peace of Jesus. It was that act of giving Mitter to Jesus that finally took away the pain. I beg you who are feeling as I did, to do what I did. It worked. Mitter and I are free to love again. It is the only way. He is Risen!
May God bless each and every one of you. Happy Easter.
TT's and Mitter's dad,
Michael Manning

http://rainbowsbridge.com/residents/MRHIG002/Resident.htm

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angiet7
Thank you for sharing what you did , i have actually done what you said and passed her over to heaven , i really do feel so much lighter knowing that she is in safe hands , thank you again , my blessings to you and my heart felt sympathy on your loss x
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Susie_Squillions
Oh, Michael ~

I am so terribly sorry to hear about Mr. Higgins!  I remember when he came to you, and how elusive he was at first.  And just look at the picture on his residency, lying right out in the open, in the daylight, resting his head on your shoe!  That's a big change from those early days you had with him.

My heart aches for you now even though I know you have found peace and reconciled the guilt you were feeling.  Even after all of that, we miss having them by our sides physically.  Our mourning is always for what we have lost, not for what they have gained.  One thing that brings me comfort is knowing how lucky Mr. Higgins was to have come into your home and your hearts.  He knew a lifetime of love while he was with you.  What a blessing for Mr. Higgins!

I know that T.T. and Mr. Higgins will soon guide another kitty your way, one who is looking for the perfect forever home.

You and your angel kitties are in my thoughts and prayers, and I'm sending virtual hugs your way now, with some to spare for your friend who gave you such tremendous council.  We had to escort our beloved T.J. to the Rainbow Bridge and ring the bell for him on March 9th.  It's been a tough time for us, but we know we made all of the right decision, and we made them out of the purest love for him.  Your friend's message touches me deeply today.  Please thank her for me..

My heart is battered and bruised, but I will not let it break. It holds such precious cargo, I must protect it now. (Susie Squillions)

"Memories of loved ones are like songs in our soul." Margaret Wakeley

T.J.'S RESIDENCY:
http://RainbowsBridge.com/residents/TJ006/Resident.htm

BUDDY GUY AYRES~LYNCH'S RESIDENCY:
http://www.rainbowsbridge.com/residents/Buddy128/resident.HTM

KING BING THE GOD CAT'S RESIDENCY:
http://rainbowsbridge.com/residents/BINGO009/Resident.htm

In one of the stars, I shall be living.
In one of them, I shall be laughing.
And so it will be as if all the stars were laughing when you look at the sky at night.
~ The Little Prince, Antoine de Saint-Exupery
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michaelmanning
Thank you Susie,
As always you are a breath of loving kindness. It takes great personal strength and the love God gave us for our furbabies to consol and minister to all the broken hearted here as you do.
I am so sorry for your loss as well. My heart aches for all who come here. That is why I don't come often. I guess I am not as strong as you. I remember you talking about TJ. I know TT, Mr. Higgins and TJ are so very happy in Heaven. And what a moment it will be to be reunited with them! 
All my comfort and support to you and yours.
TT's and Mitters dad
Michael
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Susie_Squillions
Thank you so much, Michael.  This has been a nearly unbearable loss to handle even though I know it is selfish to grieve so.  I am the one who is hurting.  T.J. is pure love energy now, surrounding us with all that is good forever and always.  it's so nice to read such moving words of comfort from someone else whom I am positive understands the sorrow we feel, and the depth of the bonds we share with our best friends.  I can't even begin to tell you how much your kindness means to me today of all days.

xoxoxo to you and Judy.


My heart is battered and bruised, but I will not let it break. It holds such precious cargo, I must protect it now. (Susie Squillions)

"Memories of loved ones are like songs in our soul." Margaret Wakeley

T.J.'S RESIDENCY:
http://RainbowsBridge.com/residents/TJ006/Resident.htm

BUDDY GUY AYRES~LYNCH'S RESIDENCY:
http://www.rainbowsbridge.com/residents/Buddy128/resident.HTM

KING BING THE GOD CAT'S RESIDENCY:
http://rainbowsbridge.com/residents/BINGO009/Resident.htm

In one of the stars, I shall be living.
In one of them, I shall be laughing.
And so it will be as if all the stars were laughing when you look at the sky at night.
~ The Little Prince, Antoine de Saint-Exupery
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ladysmom2
Thank you for sharing this Michael.

I needed to hear this.

Happy Easter to you & Judy.

 HUGS,

Georgia
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