I am writing this to give hope and comfort to those of us who have been devastated by the loss of a precious furbaby. I lost my Mr. Higgins last week, on 3/24/2010. He lost his life by drowning in our pool. I found him. I have been wracked by guilt and have suffered almost beyond my ability to cope. I rescued Mitter two years ago, after having to put my beloved TT to sleep, after 15 yrs of love. He saw me through it, bringing smiles and so much joy. He was a 9yr old tabby Persian who had just lost his dad. We needed each other. I gave Mitter all he needed, including his freedom to enjoy the back yard. He gave me what I needed. And I miss him so.
I am a Christian who believes that Mitter is in Heaven. Even that belief was not enough to console me. I couldn't eat and had to self-medicate to sleep.
I lost 5lbs in 5 days. I felt as though I was wasting away. Indeed, I wanted to. Two days ago, I received a call from a dear friend. She had led me to Christ 13yrs ago. She lived out of state, in Oregon. I am in Arizona. She said she knew I was carrying a heavy burden and was filled with guilt. I told her about Mitter. She told me God did not want me to carry that burden. That Mr. Higgins was happy and free. I was just bawling. She told me to get down on my knees and to raise my hands to God and pray. She told me to imagine I was lifting Mitter up to Jesus and giving him to Him. Then she prayed for my peace, the peace of Christ. I did. Throughout the day, my burden got lighter. Whenever those awful thoughts and images came to mind, I would see me lifting Mitter up and giving him to Jesus. I have the peace of Christ now. That next morning, yesterday, my wife said you look different. I told her my face and eyes no longer hurt. The pain of carrying his death had been replaced by the peace of Jesus. It was that act of giving Mitter to Jesus that finally took away the pain. I beg you who are feeling as I did, to do what I did. It worked. Mitter and I are free to love again. It is the only way. He is Risen!
May God bless each and every one of you. Happy Easter.
TT's and Mitter's dad,