giselle112
On 8/9/2020 ( yesterday ) My fav little fluffy guy was so excited and playing normally.. went to run errands and within 2 hours my grandmother calls me and tells me he started having multiple seizures.. I immediately took him to the animal hospital.. they told me they want to keep him for 48 hours and i agreed.. i went home and was fighting my sleep incase they call me.. i was lost confused ( still am ) and just baffled about the situation.. the next morning i got a phone call from his doctor telling me because of the seizures there’s heavy brain damage and he isn’t getting better.. i set up an appointment at 5pm to go see him ( because of COVID it’s appointment only for visitors in the ICU ) while getting ready i got another phone call from the specialist telling me he completely not responsive and it’s best to end his suffering and put him down.. my heart broke, i got an anxiety attack. I couldn’t believe the words that i was hearing!! I made up my mind that i want him to at least stay one more night, just one to see if he can get better.. i arrived at the hospital shorty after and met with his doctors.. i told them i wanted him at least one more night and they told me he would pass away and i would just be suffering him. I broke down i couldn’t take the pain i felt in my chest.. 20 minutes later i held my baby in my hand for the last time as they put him down. I took him outside in the sunlight with a blanket wrapped around as they injected it. I watched my baby look at my in my eyes with sorrow he knew he was going to leave mommy broken. It’s only been one day but wow i don’t know how i’m going to get through this.. I feel so lost and sad. I had Rex for 10 years. he was healthy. He was my SON! I don’t understand how my boy goes from playing and running with me to being brain dead from seizures a couple hours later.. 💔 This is something i don’t think i can ever come to terms with or accept. I don’t know what to do. I just want to cry all day.. i’m 24 years old and i had him since i was 13 💔 i never used any coping method online for anything but at this point i don’t know what else to do.. hopefully this group can help me even if it’s in the smallest way 😓
Giselle
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Lynnmac
I am so heartbroken for your loss of Rex. I’ve not been on this page for a while but your words resonated as was similar experience for me 9 weeks ago when I lost my beloved bunny Dillon. One minute he was fine and running and playing and then he passed. I am still heartbroken and cry every day. There are moments of feeling so grateful we shared 10 years together and that’s what I try to remember. He was a rescue and had a wonderful life. I hope in time you can remember the happy times with Rex. He knows how much you loves him and did not want him to suffer. Allow yourself to grieve. So important. Take care. 
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roseblue1
I too rescued a Maine Coon cat at five years old called Monty and he became our world and we had him for eleven years of which we were so grateful for. I still have a tear every single day as I miss my boy so much we lost him nearly ten weeks ago...but I do now remember the good times and funny times we had with our boy and there were so many and the loved we shared was amazing.
He would not want you to be sad...he knew you loved him and he loved you.

Ellen x
Ellen Hague
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PeppermintPatty
They are not with us long enough. Your life was blessed by the presence of Rex, however short it was. You are young. If you adopt again, appreciate every day because it could be gone the next. I wish I could say something to diminish the grief. Through the stages of grief though, we do gain strength. We have all been where you are. I hope you can gain some kind of peace just knowing that you are not alone. Take care. 🌹
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P_Mom
Dear Giselle, I'm so very sorry about the loss of your baby. It truly is so painful - especially when it all happens so fast without any warning.  It's good you held him in your arms and didn't let him suffer another night.  That was brave of you to do that for your boy. We all understand your pain.  It's devastating to lose such a wonderful life companion. It's hard but you will always have the beautiful memories to treasure in your heart forever. I must say his pic is incredibly beautiful - he reminds me so much of my baby boy when he was a puppy.  I had to share a pic. Hoping they're romping and playing at the rainbow bridge. ❤
Jennifer
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giselle112
Thank you so much for your kind words, you all made me feel some what a little better.. wow i’m so thankful you guys took the time out of your day to write me those short messages.. it truly means a lot. a
Giselle
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Roe
I am so sorry for your loss and know you are not alone .  This site is comforting and is helping me.  I am lost and heart broken as you are. My dog was 3 months shy from turning 15.  It is 3 weeks since Hollie left me and the missing and reminiscing along with crying is still happening.  Think of the good loving life and home you gave your baby .  This site is comforting and we are all feeling the same feelings.  Stay strong and feel no guilt .  You loved your baby and just remember your baby loved you too.  😢
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Bichonz
Giselle, I am so sorry for your loss. I would be just as devastated if I were to lose my beloved pet in the way you did. You got to say goodbye to Rex and hold him during his last moments, so he could feel your love for him.

The healing process will take time, and the tears will come with the memories. Don't be afraid to reach out to others for support.

I lost my beloved Mickey on the Fourth of July. I wrote him a letter with lots of memories of him, and I'm putting together a photo book with all his best and funniest pictures. We also have his ashes in two separate urns, and have commissioned a local artist to incorporate some of his ashes in glass pendants we can wear or display.

Take care of yourself, too.
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