I feel for you and understand what you are going through. My deepest sympathy for you at this hard time. I lost my beautiful angel of 11 yrs just over 2 months ago and i still cry for him every day. I miss him so much that it still hurts like it was yesterday i had to make that decision and watch him pass. I know it was the last act of love and kindness i could provide to him but it hurts so much that he is no longer here with me and sharing the days with me. I feel like i have lost a huge piece of myself with the loss of my Pykie, though i also feel that he has left me with some of his never ending strength as i don't quite know how i am making it through the days. It is such a hard road we must travel, but try to remember that you made this decision For Billy as he needed you to...you did it because you love him and would not want him to suffer. I have no answers for you regarding the hurt as i have not found any answers myself - but to take every day as it comes and do your best. Do whatever feels right to you. Some days i can manage more than other days...some days i cannot manage anything at all. Just know that you are not alone on this journey.
Pykie - My one and only you.
Forever and always yours. 05.02.06 - 05.04.17