I had my beautiful baby Brady put to sleep yesterday 21/12/09. She has been such a huge part of our lives and I feel like my heart has been ripped out. She was one of my girls for 15 years, and I know how lucky we have been keeping her for so long but I miss her so much. Everything seems to have just stopped, I can't eat or sleep and everywhere I look there are memories of her. She was a beautiful Hungarian puli who looked like a fluffy teddy and gave us so much love, the pain I'm feeling is so hard to bear. I'm so scared she will be missing us and wondering why she's no longer with us. we will be having her ashes back after christmas and the thought of that makes me feel sick. When will this pain become bearable? will I ever be able to cope?