Hi anchoret. You have friends and sympathetic ears here. Our stories are similar. We put our beautiful 6 year old girl down one month ago today. The 8th of the month will never be the same. She had a low red blood cell count for months, fluid was in her stomach and pushing into her lungs and causing breathing problems. We had similar diagnosis. Fixes would only be temporary and her pain would not be changed much if any. We put her down and my life will never be the same.
Two of my cats just turned 8 and that made me sad. Which it shouldn't have, it was there birthdays but I spent most of my time looking at them thinking "why couldn't Ella have made it this long" instead of thinking how awesome it was that I had them for 8 years. I suspect time will change that thinking but as of right now with her going to so young lots of things make me think that. Your pain will get worse and then better and then worse and then you will cry a lot and so on before it begins to feel ok. I hesitate to say normal because I have not made it to normal yet but I have made it to ok. Listen to the others advice here and lean on the group for support. You have found friends. Welcome and sorry for your loss.
Ella 2010 - 2016
Gone to soon, loved so much.