I don’t have a lot of experience in this but I would like to share my recent thoughts. We had to say goodbye to our old boy back in November, Auggi. He was the best first dog I could have ever asked for. He was completely trained and 7 years old when we got him. I had previously been afraid and/or annoyed by dogs but Auggi stole my heart and turned me into a dog lover. We got him shortly after buying our house, other than college my first time out of my parents house. It was the same year my husband and I got married, I started a new job (after ten years at my previous job) and my stepdaughter who previously was over one night during the week and every other weekend ended up moving in with us 5-6 days a week. It was a year of incredible change followed by several hard years and Auggi got me through all of it. He was my baby, the only one I didn’t have to share with another mom as I’m unable to conceive. Losing him was devastating. It still is.
The house was so quiet, there was no wiggly stump when I came home from work, no contestant presence on my bad (Lupus) days. I was conflicted on getting another. My stepdaughter has depression and very high anxiety so I said we could start looking in December, only a month after losing Auggi.
We rescued a two month old puppy, Kiri. She’s very sweet and beautiful. When I saw her picture something in my head just clicked and I knew I had to have her. I felt guilty for being so excited to have this new snuggly happy puppy. I cried each night missing my boy. The silence was gone though and that helped.
Once she was potty trained I started pushing for another puppy. I had always hated that Auggi was alone so much of the day while we were at work. He was dog aggressive so we couldn’t get him a friend. Two weeks ago we brought home yet another two month old puppy, Jax. He’s great. He’s cuddly where Kiri was not. He plays with Kiri all the time and most of the time they curl up in the same bed at night to sleep. The feelings of guilt were worse for me with Jax and I don’t know if it’s because he cuddles with me more or because he is a boy like Auggi.
having both puppies has been a wonderful distraction as we are staying at home during the pandemic. It has helped lessen the stress in our house and helped our kiddo focus on happier things like ball and tug rather than wanting to hurt herself. I still feel guilty but that feeling has started to lessen. I miss Auggi terribly, more so because his “Gotcha day” is coming up next week. Tonight I started crying which led me here to this forum. The new puppies help me to not focus on him so much so yes it does help. Does it make that pain go away completely? No, absolutely not. How long will it take for me to stop crying for him? I wish I could say.
follow your heart. If it speaks to you and say that little ball of fur needs you and you need it, listen to it. I like to think that Auggi would be happy we are giving some fur babies the love we showed him.