Lindsey, I am so saddened to learn of your recent and heartbreaking loss of your beloved "Sami." I too have been diagnosed with BPD. I also suffered from OCD and severe Depression for many years. My own cat named "Marmalade" also helped me through very difficult and dark times. He saved me from suicide countless times just by his enduring devotion, loyalty, love, kindness and compassion. Losing him as pushed me to the brink of insanity. I am so, so completely shattered and heartbroken. So I can totally relate to your tragic loss. Although I did not know my boy when I was 13 years old. That is remarkable. Thank you for sharing some of your and Sami's story. Now many here will know of her. Sami is not forgotten. Kind regards & my sincerest condolences, James Oh wow, thank you so much. I'm so sorry for your loss of Marmalade. I feel so lucky in a way that you saw my post - someone who can relate to having a pet comfort them in the throes of a mental illness. So you know what it's like. I mean, we all have a very special bond with our furbabies, but for me, having Sam during my mental illness was crucial to my survival. It's interesting that you spoke of suicide, because (and I've brought this up to my psychiatrist) Sami was a constant, absolute buffer between me and my mental illness. Often times I would be so suicidal and then just abruptly think, "... but what about Sam? She'll just think that I've left her." and that was a huge deterrent. I understand your pain. But now that she's gone the thoughts are so much more brutal. I would freaking do ANYTHING to have her back. Anything. God it's been a few days since I've even taken my meds. I just don't see the point. But God bless you, and I truly understand your loss.
Samwise (Sami /Sam) Humble May 21 2003 - Dec 10 2019 "and you're locked inside my heart and your melody's an art and I won't let the terror in
I'm stealing time, through the eye of the needle"