Dear Shmoobear, I'm so sorry to hear about your sudden, devastating loss. How you hearts must ache now. We all understand how empty your home feels now, and how helpless and stunned you are. Please come back and let us do our best to help you through this terrible time. I truly believe that our angel animals lead us to each other when we need help finding our paths to healing. Dakota sounds like the ideal best friend. There's an added dimension to the grief when we lose a special needs fur. There are so many times a day that remind us of them: pill times; feeding times; making the special food times; etc. Our animals are hard wired to hide signs of illness in order to survive in the wild. The weak ones become easy targets of predators and even pack mates who would challenge them for position. It will get better, I promise. I don't know exactly how it does, or when it will for you, but we do heal in time. One thing that helps tremendously is having a family of like-minded people who understand the depth and scope of your loss. That is precisely what I found when I first came here 6 years ago next week after losing our little Bengal Cat, Buddy Guy, to intestinal lymphoma. Like Dakota's condition, the symptoms seemed to come on so suddenly. We tried everything we could to help him, but it was his time to move on to his next adventure in the next dimension. I was pretty positive my heart would never heal, but it did with the help of the wonderful friends I found here. On March 9th of this year we had to say goodbye to Buddy's Uncle T.J., whom I always called the Heart of My Heart. The bond Teege and I shared was surreal. It will take me time to adjust to the stillness in our home without his rumbling purr ~ and to so many other things ~ but I am trying my best to focus on what a wonderful life he had with us, and how much love we shared. The tears still flow through those smiles, but at least the smiles are there, and that helps. I hope you will find your own smiles for Dakota. He was as blessed to have found you as you were to have found him. It was destiny for you to be together. When the time is right, whether you feel as if you're ready or not, Dakota will send you a new best friend. Although you might adjust to Dakota not being with you physically, you will never have to think about getting used to him being "gone." He never will be. He lives within your hearts forever and always a part of you. When the time comes for him to direct you to a new friend to spend your days with, you will discover that your heart will grow to make room for the new one. Dakota's place within will never be disturbed. As a matter of fact, as you open your heart to new love, your love for Dakota will continue to grow, and so will the bond you share. I promise. You and your beautiful Angel Dakota are in my thoughts and prayers, and I'm sending you virtual hugs of comfort today.
My heart is battered and bruised, but I will not let it break. It holds such precious cargo, I must protect it now. (Susie Squillions)
"Memories of loved ones are like songs in our soul." Margaret Wakeley
BUDDY GUY AYRES~LYNCH'S RESIDENCY:
KING BING THE GOD CAT'S RESIDENCY:
In one of the stars, I shall be living.
In one of them, I shall be laughing.
And so it will be as if all the stars were laughing when you look at the sky at night.
~ The Little Prince, Antoine de Saint-Exupery