Sorry for your loss of your Ruby and for the guilt you are feeling. I feel you made the right decision to take Ruby out of her pain. I have guilt for the opposite, 4th of July 2016, even though I knew it was time, I had her leave the ER vet and come home with me, hoping for a miracle, but she suffered for many hours unnecessarily. I just couldn't let go until I was forced to. I know my girl did not deserve to suffer and when I think about it, it kills my heart. She was my world and such a sweet soul, that she probably wondered how I could let her suffer that long. So I think either side of the spectrum, we have guilt. It is a lose-lose situation. It is one of Life's extreme heart aches. I know your Ruby loves you and is thankful to you for letting her go to Heaven peacefully. Please don't beat yourself up over this. You loved Ruby and would never hurt her purposely. You did what was right, don't worry. And you are right, even though we know what the end outcome will be, we still are never ready for when it actually happens. I am not sure of you believe in God, but I pray He removes the guilt and helps you get thru this raw heartbreak you are going through. It will take time and you will go through a few different emotions and over and over, but time is all that helps, and for me praying and crying out to God. I also asked for signs which I got and still receive and that helps me to know that my girl is alright and I am thankful for the 12 yrs I had with my beautiful girl. God bless your Ruby and you.
Denise (Sweet Ginger's Mom)