ILoveLucy1
I had to put my Lucy to sleep last night - my 8 year old mutt from the pound that I took home when she was 1 year old - like everybody else I suppose I feel like she was special - with a lot spunk and personality - very smart -everything was a negotiation between us - she first fell ill 2 months ago when she wasn't eating her blood work showed her platelets were low and she was hospitalized and placed on powerful immunosuppressants - than she was started on another medication which caused her liver tests to be abnormal such that we had to go to a specialist who started another medication - over the 2 months she had many complications and now looking back at it she only had a few days in between complications when she was "my" Lucy - I am a human doctor and I found it incredibly difficult to navigate all the choices I had to make about what to do and what not to do - I feel most guilty because I had to work a 12 hour shift yesterday and with the drive was away from home for 14 hours - Lucy was alone with my other dog the whole time - I knew she wasn't doing well in the morning and when I came home she hadn't eaten or had any water the whole time and was miserable - I wanted to wait for the morning to have her euthanized at home but instead had to go to the emergency hospital where we could hear another dog yelping and that was probably what my poor Lucy was hearing in her last moments - I am glad she is at peace but I am so sorry for her suffering this whole time.
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loveme3
Hi I'm so sorry for your loss. Please stop putting additional blame on yourself. What you did you did because of your love for her. Your Lucy was lucky to have you and you loved her dearly. I understand that you had to work and most people do. I'm sure Lucy would understand as well. I had to put my baby to sleep last Tues. and it was horrible. I still struggle with some quilt but I keep telling myself that at least he's at peace and not suffering anymore which is a blessing. I loved him with all my heart and miss him every day and minute of the day. I know it will get better and today is better then last week. It takes time plus this site has been wonderful because the people here get it. They know that our babies are as important as our children and family members. I hope that you will be able to find some peace soon. I'm always here to talk. Take care Lori
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ILoveLucy1
Thank you so much for your kind words - I have been looking at pictures of her when she was healthy and happy and that is helping and I'm trying to focus on being lucky enough to have the 7 years I did with her. Right now I just see the empty spaces in the places where she used to be and I miss her so much.  I know the heartache and crying is going to take time to lessen.
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julieandfurbabies
I am so very sorry for hte loss of your baby.  Know that Lucy had a life time of love with you.  She will live in your heart for always.  Know that we are all here for you my friend.   
Love Julie x
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ILoveLucy1
Thank you - I feel like my Lucy is somewhere and I want her back...the Lucy I knew when she was healthy...I am glad there are people out there who know how I feel.
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Vickye
I am so sorry for your loss of Lucy.  She was very "Lucky" that you adopted her. She had seven wonderful years with you. We all know that is not true for most pound puppies. The independent,
intelligent, sometimes hard to negotiate with are the ones that really steal your heart. I was sometimes annoyed at my girl. Being a Pekingese she could be downright feisty. We had lots of arguments over who was the boss.  Clearly it was her and she knew it!!!
Sorry again,
Vicky (Cosette's mom)


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maddy79
I am so very sorry for your loss, it doesn't seem fair and we would do anything to get them back. Life is not the same, and it will probably never be, but we have to learn to live with it. They say the pain will lessen, but it hasn't for me, though it has been 96 days since my little girl Terry passed. I suppose it if because of the guilt I am feeling, because like you, I felt overwhelmed with decision I had to make, and I think that had I gone a different route, she would have still been here. Not only that, but I feel I should have taken better care of her, better food, more attention, I was too relaxed for some reason, always assumed that she will live a long happy life.
But everybody grieves differently, and I hope, unlike me, that you will be able to find peace. Maybe it would help to share a few photos with us, Lucy seems like such a cool girl!
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