I am 1 year out after having to make to heart breaking decision to euthanize my beloved companion Daisy. She fell ill suddenly with what we thought was a routine UTI, within 1 week, had trouble passing urine and was catheterized. Following the cath, she stopped passing anything. After multiple scans they finally saw the tiny tumor completely blocking her urethra and they could no longer cath her. Another scan showed her cancer had spread to her lymph nodes and most likely her brain. I had consulted multiple vets even one who was a urinary tract specialist from a mid west university, and there was nothing to be done, still I pleaded with her vet for any hope. He also had tears in his eyes when he said nothing could be done. She was only 12 and on the outside was the picture of health even still excited to take a walk on her final day. That was a walk I will never forget she struggled, but she was happy to be with us and slowly walking in her beloved park, stopping to sniff and her tail slowly wagging. Later that day, at the vet Daisy passed in my arms as I whispered all the fun adventures we had together into her soft gray ears and her eyes were fixed on my husband, her beloved Dad. The final thing I said to her was that she had completed her mission in life; she loved and was loved. I hope she had a gentle passing dreaming of her full doggy life and the family who loved her. I live with the guilt of not seeing the signs earlier, but I know I did the right thing for my sweet girl. The pain still hits me...I am in tears again as I write this, but my life has gone on because I made sure of it. I adopted again and have found comfort in my sweet puppy, Luna. It is hard to get up and face the world sometimes because most people think Daisy was "just a dog" or your little one was "just a cat". But they are so much more. They are family, companion, confidant, soulmate and solace. Your beloved cat, just like so many on this forum knew they were loved and they loved you so much. Grief is a process and can be slow, but push through it by facing your emotions, share with people here who understand your grief. Grief is a process and you need to take you time, forgive yourself and keep loving your sweet cat. The love does not stop. I will forever grieve over Daisy, but I will also forever love her. The two go hand in hand. Without that great love, you would not feel such grief. Take care of yourself and reach out whenever you need a friend.
Lori, Daisy's Mom and now Luna's Mom