darianearca
My 6 month old puppy has gone to heaven just this morning.

She was due to be spayed two Saturday ago, but then they couldn’t do the procedure since she had a fever and her white blood cell count was high. I was then given a week’s worth of antibiotics and rescheduled the appointment to the following Saturday which was 13 Jan.

I brought her in, they did some test and once again she had a really high fever and her white blood cell count was a lot higher. The vet has also mentioned that he felt a bump in her stomach which lead us to get an X Ray. When the results came out, she has some sort of a mass inside her stomach. The vet then referred me to go to a specialist hospital an hour from me that following Monday for a biopsy and ultrasound.

Sunday, the 14th, my husband and I were watching TV, Eve was taking a nap in her bed. She slowly got up, and froze. I kept calling her and calling her but she wouldn’t move. I went up to her and petted her, then I noticed her breathing was shallow, and she was drooling and she was very lethargic.

I the rush her into urgent care, where they ended up referring us to the hospital my vet has mentioned. During the drive there, I was praying that maybe it’s just a toy she accidentally swallowed, or something that can be surgically fixed.

We got to the hospital, they did the test, and turns out she had blood and puss in her stomach. The doctor said she only had 24 hours to live if she doesn’t undergo surgery. I was ready to say yes to the surgery— but he told me that, it’s gonna cost $10,000 and it’s not guaranteed that she will live.

I thought about it real hard. I’d give up anything for Eve. Anything. Just to see her okay again. But they said, the procedure for the surgery will include just tubes after tubes coming in and out of her. It’s gonna take months for her to get put back together in hopes she’ll be okay. Trust me, I wanted to do everything we can to have her stay. But, she was in so much pain. For such a young pup, she was bearing so much load. So much load that I wanna take off of her.

My husband and I then decided to put her to rest. And I am telling you— that was the hardest decision I had to make. I couldn’t let her go. Not this soon. But I knew that I had to. I apologized to her over and over again, saying that “I’m sorry that we have to do this. That we have to part ways like this. Thank you for the laughter and joy you brought to our home.” My heart literally broke.

Right now, I’m at home and I cannot stop crying. Everything around this house reminds me of her. I miss her. I miss her pretty face. I miss cuddling with her. I wish there was a way for me to prevent what had happened to her. She really is my little girl.

She has a brother named Adam. He’s a 7 year old Pitbull. He still is looking for her where she could be in this house every since we came home without Eve. I do too. I expect to her little paws walking on the floor. The little bark that she does every morning. Her licking my husband’s toes. Her and Adam racing to the car for a car ride. I miss those. She was a good dog. I must have done something really good in my past life to get a dog like her. I really miss my bestfriend.
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Chinadoll
Your story broke my heart, I am so sorry, Eve was such a beautiful puppy. I can't imagine how you must feel. I've never lost one so young and it must be so difficult. I know you made the right decision, with all she would have had to go through with no assurance that she would survive, that could have been so much worse. When you said "I must have done something really good in my past life to get a dog like her", it brought tears to my eyes. I've said that very thing for my own little dogs, I always thought I was never deserving of such love and devotion, but God seemed to think otherwise. I think most of us here feel that way, they are such wonderful beautiful souls, and to have shared the time with them, even a very short time like you, is a blessing. This forum here helped me so much, I was lost in my grief, I had no idea how I was going to handle what had happened, but I found some solace here, I found so many others who knew how I felt. My prayers and heartfelt sympathy go out to you and your family. I know Eve loves you, she had a beautiful home and so much love for her short life, but she will never forget you. She will live in your heart forever and my belief is we will see them again one day. Thank you for letting us know Eve, so many people here who understand, willing to help. God Bless you. Come here as often as you need to, I think it helps. Hugs.
Charlie
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darianearca
Hi, Chinadoll.
Thank you for the reply. I really just do hope that we’ll see our beloved dogs again. And you’re right, being here and reading posts from people who has gone through similar things— it helps, the ecncouragement helps. Thank you once again.
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PeppermintPatty
Oh my goodness. This is the saddest story. A six-month old puppy ... I just want to cry.

Although Eve was young, she obviously have a big impact in the short time that she graced you with her presence. Please do not doubt that you did all you could for her little self. The pain must be unbearable. And it's so sad that Adam is feeling the void too. Shower him with love and don't take for granted any moment with him in the absence of your little Eve.

I'm so sorry for you loss. I wish you peace at this very difficult time. :(
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COOKIES4
Darian area. My heart and soul go out to you. The decision you faced was difficult. I believe money was not the issue. The concerns were the continued pain your baby Eve would have had to go through post surgery. ADAM US A COMFORT FOR YOU AND PRAYERS TO HIM THAT MISSES EVE SO MUCH. HOLD ADAM CLOSE.

I lost my baby precious 29 year old Cockatiel (birdie) SPARKY 12/28/2017. HE WAS THE JOY OF MY LIFE. HE TALKED, UNDERSTOOD EVERY5HINH, LOVED TO BE HELD AND PREEN ED AND WAS NEVER LEFT ALONR. HE UNDERSTOOD RVERY5HING, WAS DO SMART. HIS PASSING WAS UNEXPECTED. I CRY EVERY DAY AND NEED TIMETO PASS TO GET EVEN A LITTLE BETTER PLEASE SAY BIRDIE PRAYERS FOR "SPARKY"
COOKIES4. JOAN
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Avabear
That is so so sad I'm sorry that such a short life had to endure so much, know that you did the right thing no matter how hard it was.
Avabears mummy

'It came to me that every time I lose a dog they take a piece of my heart with them, and every new dog who comes into my life gifts me with a piece of their heart. If I live long enough all the components of my heart will be dog, and I will become as generous and loving as they are.' Anon

 

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