Oh I'm so sorry for your loss, but I am glad you have found your way here. The people on this site are kind & understanding & are helping me with the loss of my dog, Mouseford.
I can see how much you loved him. You took such wonderful care of him, tending to all of his issues, & you are such a saint for that. So many of us have it easy with our pets, with minimal health issues. What a wonderful companion you were to him.
I don't understand why dogs get cancer. Why would this world allow such incredible, pure creatures to be taken by something so horrible? My Mouseford had cancer, & I never knew until the day he died. I was, & still am, in shock over it. The shocked feeling has lessened as I have slowly adjusted to life without him, but it is still there nonethess. I have screamed & cursed the world for taking him away. I have been angry at everything. I wondered how I could have prevented this. But cancer is cancer, there is no negotiating with it. All I know is that I loved Mouseford with every ounce of my being, & gave him the best life that I could.
I hope that this website will help you manage your grief. I want you to know that I understand he was your family member, just as Mouseford was mine. I understand what it is like to feel ripped apart & shattered, a puzzle with pieces forever missing. Please come here when you are feeling overwhelmed & let this group of people try to help you through it.
My heart goes out to you.
***Loving & missing my sweet Mouseford***