Christina, thank you so much for your kind words and support. Why can't we have support groups in person. I've checked my area and no way a group and/or a grief counselor for pets...yeah, not. Closest is over an hour away. So again thank YOU for helping me and just talking it out and listening. Nobody cares like we do...it's like he was just an animal and then the calm comes over me NOW and I can think to myself exactly what you said. It's a real shame they've never known the love and bond of a pet. I feel sorry for them for missing out in life over that experience. And why do ppl keep asking why don't get another dog. You'd give it a great like like you did your boys and there are bunches to be adopted and .....you get my drift. Maybe it's me but I just lost my second best friend. Next month it will be the one year anniversary of his brother. No you don't replace them and, in time, God puts that in my path, well that's then. Now I need time to heal and cry. My whole "normal" is not the same anymore. I hate coming home. I actually stayed at the office and worked til almost 9 last night bc it kills my soul to walk in here without them (Tommy last year) and now with the loss of Chucky not being here. It's cold and quiet and just missing life. Why can't we opt out to go be with them now. Why do we have to wait. I'm pretty religious but I know I let God down now and then. But at least now I'm not mad at him anymore and since it's only been 4 days that is doing great for me!!
Well sweetie, I've got to run and get ready for work. Now it's your time to tell me all about your 14 years with your Polo. Tell me all about him. Share so I can smile and cry with you because you've made a big big difference with your absolute kindness of opening your heart and reaching out and checking on me and listening to me rant. I appreciate you. But your turn.
P. S. As you can see I haven't been on here for 2 days I think. It's so hard to explain. I feel better reading about others and what y'all are going through but at the same time I cry so much more on here because I know these ppl care. They come here to help support and be supportive so I think that's why I cry more bc it's real and ppl genuinely care and want to share. So a day or two may pass bc I know I'm going to go through a box of tissues when I log on and sometimes I don't think I can get any lower or hurt anymore - but now I can't wait to hear about you and your baby so I'll check tonight or tomorrow (if I decide to work late again).
Thank you, Christina. You are a blessing from a God for me. I only hope in time I can repay the favor and be here for you. Have a good day, friend.
You have no idea how much it means to me that I was able to help if only a little just by "listening" here. You have helped me as well, just sharing our losses and not feeling alone in our grief helps.
As for your not being on here, I do the same thing. I think that is just part of the process as well. I'd love to tell you all about Polo and his wonderful life with us...But every time I try to write his story my brain is not able to focus. It is still a bit hard. He was a really special little dog, my husband never wanted a small dog but became a convert with our first dog Jax who was a Yorkie. We lost Jax when he was 6 years old to multiple health issues, I swore that was it and I'd never get another dog. The pain of losing him was too much.
A few months after losing him I was flipping through the channels on the TV and stopped on Animal Planet. They were doing a show on the Havanese breed, I watched the show and fell in love with the breed. They were a very rare breed at the time, but I love a challenge. I researched the breed and found that they were so rare that if I was able to find a breeder I'd be in for a long wait. I chose the best breeder I could find and got approved, she also happened to be a Veterinarian. Her name was Doc Baldwin and she was dedicated to the breed, I feel so lucky to have known her and to have gotten one of her dogs. She called me a short while later and told me she had one special boy that needed a special home and she wanted to place him with us. That of course was our Polo, 2 months later he came home with us. He was an absolute joy, they are very people oriented "Velcro" dogs and natural clowns, not to mention really cute little dogs. We were in love at first sight. We didn't forget Jax, not even for a second. We were not looking for a replacement, that was part of the reason we didn't even want the same breed. We had a new little life to love and nuture and that helped our hearts start to heal and grow.
That was the start of our 14 years with our special little boy. He was as close to perfect as any dog could be. He was always happy and in a good mood, he was up for anything at any time as long as he was with us. He could happily hang out with my 80 year old mom or a biker gang and would keep everyone laughing with his antics. He had a "girlfriend" who was a little white Bichon named Maggie. He adored her and they were adorable to watch together. He also had a friend (my friend and neighbors dog) who lived across the street, his name was Oliver. Oliver died of heart failure 6 years ago and Polo never stopped looking for him. Every day when I'd take him out to get the mail, he would look across the street to see if Oliver was there. He was such a little creature of habit, he played with the same toys for his entire life. We bought him truckloads of toys, he just had favorites. He'd play with them for a bit and then go right back to his favorites,
Every night he had a cute little routine he'd go through before he settled in for bed right between our pillows. For a little dog he took up a lot of space on a King sized bed, lol. I didn't care, I don't take up a lot of room and I hated disturbing him. I'd hang of the bed before I disturbed his sleep. He snored sometimes, it would make my heart so happy to hear that sound, yet when my H snores I give him a nudge to roll over...The sound is not cute like it was when Polo did it.
We had almost 14 perfect years with him, he only spent one night away from us in his whole life. He went everywhere with us, he was a great traveler. We were so fortunate that his life was a good and healthy one. Aside from allergies in the spring and fall he was perfectly healthy for his whole life, we were so blessed. Losing him was such a shock and a terrible blow...But we wouldn't trade the 14 years we got to share with him for anything...
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