I was referred to this site by a friend and based on the posts I have read I can see that everyone has similar situations. Everyone has a loss...
My loving Ruby is nine and a half years old and she passed away last night. Wow, I still can't believe I am saying that. She is a Cavalier King Charles Spaniel. She was weak over the past week and we were planning to bring her to the vet this morning. And then I left the house yesterday for some last minute Christmas shopping....
She was wagging her tale and looking at me with that look of love that she always did as I said goodbye to her. My mother had come over to stay with her as she usually does because they have a close relationship and bond. I got home around 11 and when I walked into my house I had known something was wrong right away. She was laying in her crate, her eyes closed, and I knew. And I was terrified. And the waterworks came soon after. As I sat and looked at her, tears in my eyes, my mother explained to me that while I was gone it happened and she did not want to do anything until I returned.
A part of me is gone. A part of me is missing. A part I know I will never be able to get back. My heart breaks a little more knowing I'll never be able to see those eyes staring back at me again. I remember the day I picked Ruby up as if it were yesterday. She was the tiniest puppy I had ever seen and she helped heal my family and I. After losing a sibling my whole world was a mess and she always put a smile on all of our faces. She always cuddled with you and she could sense when you were upset. She was there for me through heartbreak, breakups, and losing multiple people in my life. Always waiting by the door to run up and attack me with kisses and love.
I'm not sure how I am going to get through the days especially with the holidays approaching. Everywhere I go I see her toys and her bed. I expect to turn the corner and her be waiting for me. I could not sleep at all last night and am scared to tonight because she always slept with us. Her warmth and the love she gave me is something no human could ever be able to match. No matter how much someone may try, Ruby loved me unconditionally and that is by far the hardest part of all this. I still cannot wrap my head around that she is gone..I'll love you forever my Angel.
Rachael (Ruby's mom)
"Pawprints left by you.. you no longer greet me, As I walk through the door. You're not there to make me smile, To make me laugh anymore. Life seems quiet without you, You were far more than a pet. You were a family member, a friend, a loving soul I'll never forget. It will take time to heal- for the silence to go away. I still listen for you, And miss you every day. You were such a great companion, constant, loyal and true. My heart will always wear, the pawprints left by you"