I think we all have this fear. When my Dali left, I started writing about her life, from how I got her until the day she left. I still write down memories and special thngs about her. I keep a piece of her hair in a bag and touch it and stroke it. Her pictures are all on my shelf, I have been unable to bring myself to put them in a memory book yet, although I bought one for her. I keep a picture on my nightstand, pictures on the wall, the shelf, in my car, and I never travel without one in my purse. I dont' think I will ever forget anything about her, I make sure I keep that close. It would be horrible to forget. I write to her daily, sing to her, call for her, and wait for the day we are together again. It will be 4 months on the 27th since she left. I have a hard time now remembering what it was like to be so carefree and happy. Life is different now. One night I woke up in panic that the house would burn down and I would lose all her pictures! I got up and put one in my fireproof safe. But then I felt comfortable that there are plenty online, so I will never be without one. I have her picture on mugs, her name and a charm on my necklace I always wear and hold close to my heart. I am determined....never to let her fade away and be insignificant... Dali is my life and always will be. It is so sad to be without her, yet I thank God for every day I had with her. Hugs to you all from me and Dali
I can really relate to how you feel about photos and such. 90% of my photos of my girl are on a phone that I no longer use. I have to find a way to get them off of it because the thought of losing them is horrible! I do have them online but its just not the same. After my girl passed I made a photo book on http://www.shutterfly.com for my daughter. It has their very first photo all the way to their last one together. I made sure to chronicle their major moments together so I could always remember as well as my daughter for when shes older. Like you I am heartbroken that my very best friend is gone and that I had to be the one to make that choice...however I know my extreme sadness is a clear sign that the life we shared was special so I wouldn't change anything!