Lamont I think the emotions from grief are extremely hard work, utterly exhausting and wow just give yourself credit for getting through the last two and a half weeks. I hear you about depression and despair feelings. I think they're part and parcel of this whole process as rotten as it is. I have been in the thick of that too. I keep telling myself I'm going to get through this and I'm grateful to be able to call upon a history of losing one previous dearly-loved pet and surviving that loss 11 years ago. You are surviving too and will continue to live through it but it sure would help if the process wasn't so hideously painful!! I think most of us here are kind of peas in a pod , intent on not drowning in our sorrow but fighting our way to the surface. We just keep on paddling. There's got to be a Shore called Better coming into view! Sheesh I have gotten wordy and it's obvious I don't know what to say but I do wish you well and hope you feel better soon.
-Missing Marissa deeply