Hi everyone its my first time on here but i was hoping for some advice on how to deal with my situation. my cat graham was just under 15, she had lost weight and i put it down to worming, and then i noticed she wasnt eating a lot and looked the same way as my other cat did when he died. anyway the day before new years eve she ate nothing she was very weak and actually fell down while tryin to jump up on things, i stayed up with her all night and took her to the vets next day they said leave her to have an x-ray and they would phone. they phoned and said there was a problem with her kidneys, they could put her on a drip but there would only be a slight chance of her pulling through which is fine if it was for the best. whats bothering me is they said do u want to come and see her before we do it? and because i remembered how bad my other cat was i said no just do it as soon as you can.now i cant stop thinking why didnt i go up? she might have been waiting for me and the last people she saw were strangers. i cant stop thinking it. advice anyone?