I'm so sorry. I can only imagine how much that would hurt. I'm sure your Mom was trying to protect your feelings although I know that doesn't make it feel any better right now. Shadow was so beautiful. It's really a sad situation because I think your Mom was trying to save you from hurt but it ended up hurting you more. I don't know what you believe but I believe with all my heart that you WILL see your little guy again someday. He knows you loved him. Again, I'm so sorry for what you are going through.