I am so sorry that you had to say goodbye to your precious Hootie. I know the depth of pain you are feeling and I can relate to the guilt you describe. I think that we all experience feelings of guilt, for various reasons, after we have to let go of our dear companions. We want to keep them with us forever and we want to be the best parents that we can and if we feel that we let them down in any way, we have difficulty letting go of that thought.I don't think you failed your boy at all. You were the last face that he saw, the last voice he heard and the last touch he felt. He left for his journey to Rainbow Bridge with you in his heart and he knew how adored he was. It sounds as if he was peaceful when he closed his eyes...that is how it should be. Be proud of yourself for having the strength to be able to let go when Hootie needed you to, because that is hard to do. Try to remember Hootie's life, not by those final moments, but by the many, many moments of pure joy and love that you shared with him. That is what he will remember when he thinks of you.You need to give yourself time to grieve now. You have lost a precious member of your family and it is hard to come to terms with. I don't think we ever get over it, we just learn to live with our "new normal". I said goodbye to my gorgeous beagle, Bella, nearly 11 months ago and I still have times that I struggle through tears. I think I will always feel the emptiness and have moments of tears because she is no longer by my side.Hold your memories of Hootie in your heart...they are yours to keep forever. I hope that soon they will bring you more smile than tears.I wish you peace and healing.
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