It's so difficult because these feelings are so unpredictable. They come up when you least expect them or want them, regardless of where we are. It's disconcerting when we feel so powerless over them.
I have a pet loss group that I started going to. There is a meeting tonight, but I can't bring myself to drive in rush hour traffic to get there. It's a fantastic group, but I just want to stay on the couch tonight. I'm also starting a new freelance job tomorrow. I haven't worked since June when I took the time off to spend with Mill. I'm dreading tomorrow, doing work I dislike and being surrounded by strangers. I pray I can keep it together and focus on the task at hand. SKMK I hope your new therapist works out for you. Having a safe outlet for your grief will help. I pray that she will be good for you I've been thinking about you Marlen, having double the grief and loss. I don't see how you WOULDN'T still be grieving after all you've been through losing those 2 sweet babies of yours. I don't know how I would be able to cope Melissa, I hear you re the dentist. As I've gotten older I've apparently become more sensitive to pain and dental pain is up there. I hope everything will be ok. I can just hear Rookie grumbling then lying next to his mom, comforting you. Something about the big dogs that gives us a sense of protection. My rottie did the same. She would grumble to let me know to pay attention to her, then when she knew I was feeling bad would stay very close. If I was very sick she would lie on top of me to keep me warm. Rookie is lying next to you in spirit. Just try to listen more closely for his angel grumbles : )
Mom to Millie, Roman, Snoopy & step sister to O'Boy