I can feel your love for Hazel in your words, 5 months I almost can’t imagine .....our lives sound so similar Marley was my one special girl too, as soon as she heard a hair dryer she was worried I’d be going out even if I wasn’t so she would bolt into my room and tap my leg with her paw so I’d kneel or sit cross legged on the carpet to pet her while I dried my hair....the one sore arm was always worth the loving look she gave me back . She too loved car rides as well. I swear some days I can glance over in the car for a split second and still see her and the love in her eyes under the warm sun. The quiet is the hardest you are so very right there we have no idea exactly just how much life they fill up in a home until the quiet hits....that part is really really hard.
On our walks she always had those few “favorite” spots like a hedge or certain tree she insisted on stopping at (5 to be exact) and smelling them and I knew those were her pause moments , I see them now and try to smile but cry with my head down and try to dash back to house before anyone sees me, it feels like a lifetime since I’ve smooshed up against her cheeks with mine ,smelled her fur and smooched her little head but at the same time it feels like a split second ago feeling the pain of losing her hit me. 💔 everyday feels like my heart gets heavier.
my thoughts are with you tonight too