I'm mostly numb myself, although when I read your thoughts I started crying a lot, because I'm afraid of forgetting my Wizberry too. Not that that could ever happen but you know what I mean- I don't want to move on with my life without him.
I think for me the pain is so overwhelming that I'm trying to stifle it down or something. Just do whatever you feel like doing there is no right or wrong for grief or how you choose to deal with the loss. each person takes it differently there are no rules. There are going to be times when we're not thinking of them just like when they were with us. I'm sure when you went to work or something you were not constantly thinking of your Riley right? I know I often felt guilty in the past two years when I was caring for wiz when I went out and enjoyed myself because I feel I should've been at home with him a lot more. Even though I spent a lot of time with him. Hugs to you
My beloved sweet Tess August 1999 - February 21 2001
My beloved loyal Byron March 1998 - April 28 2008 My sweet beloved girlie Angelina April 2001- September 2012 Me & my sweet beloved Wizberry forever 1998- April 21, 2016 My sweet beloved Snow Goddess Sybil girlie April 2001- May 11,2018