Thank you for replying Needed to hear all of that. I know what I'm doing isn't smart but I know once I go back to school I will be distracted and won't need to do those things anymore. I am going to talk to my mom today. She saw that I had been crying all night and we said a few things but nothing serious. We are going to a shelter today to look at other pups but she said we don't have to get one if I'm not ready. I'm going to talk to her and more about how I'm feeling. I also spoke to one of my best friends and it felt so good to let it all out. Thank you again very much for the advice. 💕❤💕
I'm so sorry for your loss. Everyone on this forum understands the depth of your pain.
You need to talk to your mom. It's ok to tell her you didn't talk about it because you weren't ready. Then take it from there. It's ok to say you thought you would be able to get through it alone but now you see its causing you more pain. As a mom, I would want to know how you are feeling. No one can take away the pain but having someone to listen to you talk is very therapeutic to healing.
You are self medicating your pain which could lead to bigger problems down the road. I don't want to sound like a therapist because I'm not. But, I see the trend you are setting up for yourself and that's not healthy.
Grief is a long process. If not done correctly it can come back at us down the road and cause more trouble.
Speak to your mom or your md. Reach out for help. Write in a journal, talk on this forum, go to the chat room. There's help out there for all of us to get through this together.
I'm so sorry for your pain and loss. If you were my daughter I would take you in my arms and cry with you💕💕
Please keep posting so we know how you are doing.