I want to send love to everyone who is suffering with a loss. How I wish we could all physically meet in a room to console each other and share stories. This forum is a nice alternative.
Those of us who suffer the most have profoundly loved at the deepest level possible and I believe such a deep emotion never dies. We will always hurt but will learn better ways to cope. For 2 weeks I have gone home at night and watched you tube videos about pet loss and the afterlife. This has given me some comfort.
I had to let my dog go 2 weeks ago and it feels as though it happened 6 months ago. Someone told me that is because grief moves in slow motion. Getting out of bed is difficult. Some days I am okay.. and some days I am a mess. I realize I must stop going over things in my head. I gave him lots of love and a wonderful life and that is far more important than the ending. I feel so alone and I need to talk about him but after so long people don’t want to hear it. I have held it together at work but there is one person who has avoided me due to my lost… and she loves dogs! I could understand if I was acting like a basket case but I haven’t.
I try to focus on the fact that my baby is free of everything on this earthly plane… and I envision him as a brilliant sparkling form of energy with wings zooming around in another dimension .. one of which we have little understanding of. I think the beauty on the other side is far more intense than what our worldly minds can comprehend or understand. I must now focus on letting him go and paying off the debt I incurred with his treatments. Life goes on and it isn’t healthy to keep myself trapped in this self-torture. Healing is best way to honor my precious baby…. Hour by hour.. day by day.