I’m so sorry for your loss. Our beloved dog passed away just over 6 weeks ago. Her death was sudden. I cry everyday and some days are really really hard and I can’t get out of bed. So many what ifs and I should haves. I am talking to a grief therapist and have joined several pet loss support groups and some are spiritual. I believe even though they leave their body their sprite and energy is always with us. The special bond and the love we have for each other never ends. I have had a few strong signs and couple of dream visits. People might think I’m going crazy but that’s how I can cope and be strong for my family. The pain is there I’m just learning how to live with it.
@Memories_of_MarmaladeThank you for sharing and for letting us know that things can get better and there’s hope for all of us.
I was starting to feel better but Mother’s Day was a major set back for me. I was so sad not having Pecan around. Everything happened so fast she was healthy then she wasn’t but she was drinking and walking around so non of us thought that it was life threatening and I was told by one of the vets over the phone that it wasn’t but I had a bad feeling that night and for a while. I was going to take her to her own vet first thing in the morning. I was holding on to her and wasn’t letting her go and we rushed her as Soon as we could and when her breathing changed. I can’t stop wondering what if I took her in sooner, maybe there was a way that she could be here today or maybe they could tell us what caused it. Not knowing is really hard. I miss her so much and I want her back. I need to believe that I could not stop her death and her going so soon and fast wasn’t my fault. It was a busy night and my mind was raising. I didn’t know what to do.. can I ever be happy again? Do I even deserve to be happy again? I took care of her like a princess for 9 years and I feel like I gave up on her on her last night on earth even though I didn’t leave her for one second. I am thinking maybe I need to go on meds for a while even though I don’t believe in medication but I am not sure if I can be in this dark dark place. I have two teenage daughters, my husband and my parents that need me. I miss my little pecan she was my soulmate, why did she leave me so soon? Is it because I didn’t deserve her?thank you for listening to me and I wish you all happiness and health.
James,Thank you so much for your kind and heart warming words. Pecan had a great life and gave me so much love and joy. She was full of life that day and things changed so fast. I feel so bad when I think about her last day/night. When we woke up that morning I had no idea things would change and she wouldn’t be with us the next day. She was our little princess. When we adopted her I knew her life would be limited and this day would come but I didn’t think that it would come so soon and unexpectedly. I feel bad for my daughters too they miss her so much. I am going to talk to my therapist and my dr about antidepressants. I really need to get better and start seeing and believing everything you just said. thanks again and take care,
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