I am so sorry for the loss of your beloved companion Sherlock. You can see her intelligence and poise from your photos and how "tuned in" she was to you. I am coming up also on my one year without my sweet pup, Daisy. I lost her lost July 6th, 2018 to cancer. I still mourn her loss and not a day goes by when I don't talk with her and wish I could have just one more day, hour or minute with her. We all understand your grief here, I too experienced the shutting down of family and friends when I needed to talk about her. Sherlock was not just a cat or pet to you. Just like Daisy was to me, Sherlock was your family, friend, confidant, soul mate and baby all rolled into one. I love the story you told about how Sherlock found you. You were open to love then, and it sounds like you still are when the time is right.
I wish you peace and healing at your own pace and know there are many friends here who understand and have walked down the same heartbreaking path. We are all here to support you and listen. Take care of yourself.
Lori, Daisy's Mom and now Luna's Mom