I’m sorry for your loss of Benji. I lost my 11 year old cat in January but still miss her. At first, you’re so devastated and lost. My grief was overwhelming and I cried for weeks off and on. My home felt so lonely without my kitty; there wasn’t a room where her memory wasn’t there.
May I offer my deepest sympathies on your loss of your precious boy. Hope your heart heals in time.