Hello Breezy 2013, I am sorry for your loss. I had several budgies so I know the attachment you can have to a bird also. Birds are also very good at disguising their health problems. Mine did. They don't want to show as the weak part of a flock...he must have been a lovely chap your parrot. I understand the feelings of guilt I am going through the same. My dog Alma was pts on the 31st of July and I am full of guilt wondering what I should have seen better. She was 17 and 10 months and I didn't want to torture her with invasive medical treatments. I wanted to weigh her quality of life against the stress of being at the clinic. It was a difficult choice to make. I am still not sure it was good and it it very difficult to live with this doubts. I had to trust my feelings and they were telling me she was suffering.
I hope you feel better soon all the best x
Alma, the light of my life in my darkest hours....you will be missed forever...