All of us here want to bring you comfort. It always shocks me to find out that we are talking to people all over the world. Amazing and we are ALL in the same boat.
I am thankful you have Alfie to still love and care for. My arms are empty, but it isn't time, not sure it ever will be for me to bring another pet into my life.
Someone here said that the grief "comes sometimes in gentle waves and sometimes hits like a tsunami" and those words are so true. The people on this site are the most wonderful in the entire world and I only wish we could all be together for a HUGE hug.
Sending one to you right now.