JeanneBaileysMom
I had to put my beagle, Bailey to peace on Saturday night, Nov 14th. He was only 7 years old. He developed a serious back problem about 4 years ago.But rest and pain meds sufficed to put him back to normal. Last week I noticed he was walking funny again and took him straight to the vet. They prescribed restricting his activity again and an RX for pain and anti inflamatory medications for him. He seemed to do ok til Saturday night when we went to feed him he could barely walk. He stood to eat dinner with his hind legs crossed at the ankles and my heart broke I knew I was seeing the neurological symptoms the vet warn me about, he went outside to tinkle and fell over when he tired to lift his leg. We rushed him to the emergency animal Clinic and they said the dreaded words  I did not want to hear, that he would need to go to a neurology specialist, have test and back surgery. I just could not put him through that, he had bilateral luxating patellas at the age of two and endured surgery and rehab twice once for each back leg and it was awful, so painful and no way to explain we we trying to help him. I just could not bring myself to have him suffer any more with back surgery and recoperation again. He was in terrible pain, trembling all over and whimpering. After a short discussion my husband and I chose to put him to peace. He stay and held his dog while they gave him "the shot". I am now questioning my decision, should I have tried the surgery, did we kill our dog too soon, he was so young, would have been 8 next month. I have cried buckets of tears into my remaining dogs fur, my springer spaniel, Millie. I know some of you might remember me, I was here as Jeanne-Amandas Mom years ago.
          Now I am
                  JeanneBaileysMom. and I am asking for your support and prayers once again
              Blessings to you all
I cant believe I will never hear his joyful baying again.

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dflagel
Hi Jeanne,

I am very sorry for your loss.  It is very difficult to know when the right time is, but I am sure you made the right decision.  When deciding on whether or not our friends to sleep we have to weigh what we are putting them through if we try to keep them alive.  If there is no quality of life and they are miserable, putting them to sleep is the loving thing to do.  I have been in a situation recently where I had to decide the right time to put our cat down.

You and Bailey are in my thoughts and prayers.

Dave
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JeanneBaileysMom
Hi Dave:

Thanks so much for your kind words and prayers. I am sorry about the loss of your kitty. Bailey loved kittes.I know in my heart we made the right decision for Bailey, it would have been weeks and weeks of recovery and no guarantee a good outcome, some dogs just don't ever walk properly again. Bailey loved to run and I miss that beagle bay. Just once I would love to hear that Baroooooooooooooooooooooooo!
                Blessings and peace to you
                            Jeanne-Baileys Mom
ps Am going to try to attach some more pictures, most of mine <I am a retired pro photog> are too big and I need to reduce them in size. Do have one little one of Bailey and his Daddy.

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Susie_Squillions
Oh, Jean ~

Your post brings tears to my eyes.  I am so sorry to hear about your devastating and troubling loss.  Please try to release the guilt you feel.  Bailey knows you would have moved heaven and earth for him if you could have.  You're right ~ he would have had a long, tough recovery after the surgery, and we all know that surgery doesn't always guarantee a full recovery.  Bailey understands your decision and he will live in spirit and in your hearts forever.

Another thing that really hit home for me about your post is that my family found a Basset Hound named Bailey when I was little, and I remember the heartache of parting with him when his family showed up at our door to take him back home.  He had been with us for several days, and I was already attached to him.   We also had a Beagle named Freckles when I was a toddler. I was young enough that I don't remember Freckles much at all, but he is present in so many family pictures from that period that I know he was a big part of our family life.  As I was reading your post, I could almost see Freckles and (our) Bailey greeting your Bailey upon his arrival in his new realm of perfect health and happiness.

Bless you for giving Bailey the ultimate gift of love by letting him go and not putting him through any more surgery and recovery. He had already endured so much of that.  He knew a lifetime of love and excellent care in the seven years he was with you, and that is something so few dogs get to know.

It takes time to heal.  We will be here for you every step of the way.  Please come back and tell us more about life with Bailey as you're able to.

You and Angel Bailey are in my thoughts and prayers.


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JeanneBaileysMom
Dearest Susie:

You always know just what to say to help ease the pain I carry in my heart. I know we did the right thing, part of me just wishes we could have found a way to save him. Such a dear little man. He adored everyone he every met, human or dog. Even the neighbors cat got a quick sniff and was left alone. Baileys favorite was my husband he slept curled up on Charlies shoulder when he was a baby. When I got him, he was 9 weeks old and weighed just 5 lbs. The family that purchased him from his breeder had decided they were not dog people after all, and ran an add in the paper. He came to me when I still had my 3rd springer, Courtney. One of my very favorite videos is the two of them playing together, Courts would lay down and this tiny pup would jump at her and jump back. She would swat him with a paw and knock him head over teacup. He picked himself up and came right back for more. He adored children, when we walked at our local park the kids would all run to sit down with him and pet him, the more little hands patting him the harder he wagged his tail. If a family can accept the baying, I think beagles are one of the greatest family breeds around. They are very noisy though. When we had to put my Courtney to peace just three years ago, I rescued Millie my 4th springer, she and Bailey love to play bite and growl and run together in our yard. I included a picture of her in my previous post. She misses him terribly, but I am giving her lots of extra hugs and kisses, in time she may even get a new brother or sister, but for now I need to grieve the loss of my beloved, Bailey. He is up at the bridge and playing hard with all my springers and your dogs too.
Bless you Susie for your kind words, they helped ever so much.
         With love,
                Jeanne-Bailey's Mom

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jasminesmom
Jeanne,

I had to make that decision for my beloved Jasmine on 09-4-09. The pain is still very real today. The guilt will be ever lingering.
Find comfort in knowing Bailey is at The Bridge free from pain and running with all the Angels.

My thoughts and prayers are with you and  your famly.

Cheryl and Angel Jasmine
Cheryl and Angel Jasmine
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Jasmine was given ProIn
Jasmine is now gone
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rbykrk
Jeanne I am so sorry for your loss of precious Bailey. I feel the pain in your words but your love comes thru just as strong. Bailey knew the love you shared with him was truly special in many many ways. The bond you share will never be broken. I hold you in my heart and send you prayers of comfort and healing.
Ruby, Chucky's Mom

"Never does a man know the force that is in him until some mighty affection or grief has humanized the soul."

Chucky...Forever Beloved.....May 13, 2007,
Rusty...November 30, 2007
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JeanneBaileysMom
Thanks so Rbykrk and Ruby, your thoughts and prayers are comforting. Its only day 3 and I know from previous experience I have a bumpy road ahead. I dont think I will hang up his Christmas stocking this year or put his ornament on the tree, the grief will just be too fresh in our minds. My husband is already talking about a new dog, but its too soon for me, I need time to grieve for my Bailey beagle, such a dear little man, he had the heart and stance of a Rottie in his little beagle body. He was only 23lbs one of the smaller beagles in the under 13" category and he was red and white and had a wonderful baying voice that he used with such intensity. I miss him so, gotta stop, am crying again and I need to feed and love on my other dog, Millie, I posted her picture too and have a darling one of the two of them together I will resize and post soon.
             Bless you both for your kindness,
                             Jeanne-Baileys Mom

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JeanneBaileysMom
So sorry Cheryl, I thought I read your name as Ruby. My mistake.
               Jeanne-Baileys Mom

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JeanneBaileysMom
Dear Friends:

I need some help here. I will be picking up Bailey's ashes from the Vet when they call probably later this week or early next week. I have lived in my home for 33 years and the ashes of all my other beloved dogs are buried together in the yard. There's Candy who went to the bridge in 1987, Fancy 1992, Amanda 2002, Courtney 2006, they were all my springer spaniels. Bailey was our first beagle. Now here's my problem, I have lovely stones for each dog with their names and dates, some heart shaped and can certainly take those with us. I am retired. My husband plans to retire Jan 4th 2010. We are seriously thinking of selling the house and moving. I would like to take Bailey's ashes with us and have him in our new home and all the dogs stones would at least be together. What do you think, should I hold off and take his ashes with us to our new home or put him with his beloved Courtney, He adored her so much.
          Thanks for your help, I cant seem to function too well today, its hard to type and think through my veil of tears.
              Jeanne-Baileys Mom

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Aleta
Dear Jeanne,
I do remember you and I am so sorry for your loss.
I haven't been here for quite awhile. I had surgery in Sept and also moved.
So, I just decided to come in today. I read your post and it is so hard when we lose a baby. No matter how many times we send them to heaven it never gets any easier. It will be a year on Nov 28th since I sent my fourth Shih-Tzu Annabelle to heaven. I miss her so much as I do her sisters.
So, my friend have faith.
Love and many hugs,
Aleta and her kids xoooooooo 
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JeanneBaileysMom
Dearest Aleta:

How wonderful to touch base with you again. Thank you for your kind words. Its day 5 and I am still crying and grieving. But also taking the time to spend with my other dog, Millie. Bailey would not have wanted his sister to suffer, so we are taking long walks in a nearby park. Its so grand to live in southern California where the daytime winter temps get up in the 70's most days, so pleasant for a walk. Instead of having her heel, I have been letting my beloved Millie have her head and walk on the "release" command which means she can wander side to side and sniff to her heart content and even stop to sniff if she pleases, do everything except pull me. She and Bailey always loved to hear the release command, both being hunting dogs, ie beagle and springer spaniel, they live to hunt and sniff. Millie especially hunts those little sun lizards and birds are NOT permitted to sit on the phone and cable wires over our backyard or either of the neighbors, if she can see them, she barks til they fly away. We have birds year round here and my husband finally moved his bird feeder to the FRONT yard, I told him it was just teasing the birds to have it in back, Millie didnt let them near it. I have been trying to concentrate on her, and helping her adjust to Bailey being gone and that in turn is helping me.
              Am going to attach a picture of Millies first Christmas after we rescued her in early Dec when she was just a year old. She is 3 now. She opened all her own presents and helped with mine as you can see, we call this picture
         "Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat, I was just helpin'!!!!!
                     Jeanne-Bailey's Mom

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Princess
Jeanne,
There is no right nor wrong in this decision that you had to make for your precious baby, it was the right thing to do.  I have had to make that decision for my last two losses, and it was so hard but I know that this is part of being a good furparent the knowing when it is time, and I do believe that they tell us too when they are ready.  You could tell , your grief is so fresh and it is hard I know but know that you don' t walk this road alone we are all here for you, I have been around here since 2005 and always know that when I need understanding that this is the place for me to be.  There are many angels here who have suffered the loss and hurt you are feeling please reach out anytime you need to talk and know that all our babies are watching over us and will forever be with us.
Hugs and prayers of healing
Debbie Princess, Kaizer and Maddie's mom
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JeanneBaileysMom
Thanks so much Debbie. I have been working on Bailey's scrapbook, can now sort through the pictures of him without completely breaking down. Tomorrow will mark on week and I know it will be a hard day. My other dog is doing well. I just cant seem to shake the depression, but I know it takes time. Cant eat much, not sleeping well, but that will pass too. Its even hard to think about Christmas without my beloved beagle boy.

I remember you from my time here when my Courtney springer went to the bridge. Princess was a lucky doggie to have you.

Well this is making me cry again, Found another way of coping, I remember I did this the last time. When night falls I go outside and light a candle on my patio and watch the stars and talk to Bailey and my other dogs that are there at the bridge.
                Thanks for you kinds words and prayers,
                            Jeanne --Baileys Mom

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Tricia
Dear Jeanne,

I do remember you so well as Amanda's mom!  I'm so very sorry for the loss of your beloved Bailey. He's so beautiful. He was too young, my heart breaks with yours. You did all you could for Bailey, you gave him the gift of love by letting him make his journey to the Bridge and we all know how very difficult  and heartbreaking it is to let our babies go.  We were very blessed to have our Ozzie Beagle for 17 years, he had epilepsy for most of his life and made his journey to the Bridge 10 years ago and is still so very missed, but he was there to greet our Burton who made his journey 4 years ago and there to greet your beloved Bailey.

Please know that my thoughts and prayers are with you.

Hugs,

Tricia

Tricia, Burton&Ozzie's Mom

"Good night sweet prince:And flights of angels sing thee to thy rest!"
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