I’m so sorry you had a hard morning. This will unfortunately happen as you go through the grief process. Sometimes you’ll feel like you’re doing better and then the grief and loss will come back up and hit you hard.
I love the pictures you posted of your older dog and then your puppy. They’re both beautiful! It’s hard to make sense of a little guy being taken so suddenly and that may be adding to your grief. Losing them both within 5 years is also very hard and you’re right, it sucks! I so agree that there can be no substitute for the love and loyalty and unconditional friendship a dog gives us. I feel sorry for people who haven’t experienced that bond. When you talk about getting another dog I’d suggest giving yourself some time.Six months is what I’ve been told though I think it’s different for us all. When the time is right you may wish to consider an older rescue dog. There are so many unwanted dogs out there! I’ve been helping out at a shelter in spare time and I see so many dogs come in who’ve done nothing wrong. Owners are moving or having a baby and don’t have time for the dog. I feel particularly awful for the ones whose owners have had to go into nursing homes because they were so loved. These dogs are so bewildered and often very afraid but once fostered or adopted you could never find a more grateful or loving pet. These are some things to think about but again I would wait for a bot and be sure you’re ready.
I’m sorry, I know it’s so hard! Hugs to you!
Thank you CK....I actually waited about 9 months after jasper passed in 2015 to adopt another dog. I’ve only gotten a dog from a rescue organization and never anywhere else. I think I’m extra hurt because Toby was only 4 and so filled with life. beautiful little dog . He had some peeing in the house issues which were getting to be hard to deal with even though he had a large yard. Some anxiety issues for sure .....
But nothing in this universe prepared me for Tobys horrific and tragic death. We were so bonded at his young age of 4.
I was making major changes with him...and myself the night he passed away. Beyond ironic that we were going to the dog park. I had been talking with a neighbor who had a dog also and suggested it really could help .hisbdog was older and Toby younger . He suggested Toby go to the little dog part of the park and his dog to the larger dog part. We hadn’t met up yet so I know it wasn’t a dog scaring him.
I totally agreed might help and that was either too late on my part /fate or other ...I have tremendous guilt ...I’m trying to work on that ...
I have regrets and blame myself for not acting sooner in his benefit . I am reading alot and I have felt some to little relief knowing that it was an accident . Why I don’t know ...life hasn’t answered many questions but Toby is part of me forever.