I am so sorry. Your Riley was so beautiful. My son and his girlfriend have a rag doll, and I love being with her. We lost our house lop bunny, Timothy, 5 months ago. He was young too, just 3 years 8 months. I came home from work to find him passed away on the the kitchen floor. It was also sudden and unexpected. I cannot remember those first hours at all. I have never experienced shock before, but I know that's what it was.
I never slept at all for days. For the next few days, we just couldn't be at home. We would go out early, back home late. Everything was a blur and we were just functioning on autopilot. We laid him to rest in our garden, and I remember crying and crying that night and wanting my husband to go get him and take him back to the vets the next day so we could have him cremated. I couldn't cope with the thought of him being outside alone. Basically, I was a crazy mess for the first couple of weeks at least. I have lost family members but I have never felt such grief and guilt. I went back to work 5 days after, which helped a tiny bit because I was with people who understood. They knew how much Timothy meant to me. They never thought of him as "just a rabbit", so I could talk about him, which also helps a lot. I would still have to take myself off sometimes for a good cry. But then there was the going home to the emptiness. And that was unbearable. To begin with you will find every day is the same. Riley will fill your every waking thought and you feel like you are walking in a fog. Normal life is going on around you but nothing seems real. Very gradually, and it will be very gradual, there are no set time limits, you will begin to function a little bit better. I find it helps me to sit out in the garden every morning before work (no matter what the weather is like) and talk to Tim. I close my eyes and think of him and I really feel a connection. It is 'our time'. It helps me then be able to get on with the rest my day as best I can. If you can do something like that, especially with your other kitty being there with you, it might help a little. I am not healed. Not in the slightest. Like VickyMJ says, a part of you goes missing forever, so you have to adjust accordingly. I posted something about the 'the waves of grief', and the words are so true. One day you think you have turned a corner, the next you are back to square one. This isn't unusual at all. It will take time for your other little kitty to come to terms with this too, but I have no doubt you will help each other through this. Probably speak to your vet if you think she is really struggling and not eating properly. Thinking of you. Take care. Lynda
" The pain I feel now is the happiness I had before. That's the deal" C.S. Lewis