I'm probaly in a minority here as far as owning reptiles. My absolute love for animals falls for bearded dragons. I've been raising and owning bearded dragons for about 8 years now. I currently have 2 bearded dragons, both of them about 8 years old, Drake and Eragon. I actually adopted both. I adopted Drake from someone in our town whos mom would not let him keep him. I was looking to get a lizard at the time because I have always wanted one. I love him to death. He's been there for me for the hardest and best times of my life.
Eragon, me and my girlfriend adopted this past September. One of my friends moms saw on all the pictures I post of my beardie on Facebook. Her son had moved out and had given Eragon to one of his friends. She told me the friend did not take good care of him at all. He had put him in a tubware container with no heat light or anything. So there was no way I could pass that up. Hes a goof. He's always getting into somthing hes not supposed to and love's to sleep in the funniest places. He's been an awesome addition to our family.
A lot of people don't understand, but bearded dragons are actually friendly animals. A lot of reptiles have reputation for being mean animals that bite and claw at you. Bearded dragons are not like that at all. They actually have personalities and they love getting attention from people. They are immensly curious and love to explore and go into tight dark spaces. They are also the cutest reptile you'll probaly ever see. I love everything about them.
Well last June, me and my girlfriend made another addition to our family. We went out of town for a weekend to spend some time together and we stopped at the Petsmart there to pick up some supplies for our lizards. Well we passed by the bearded dragon tank and saw they had some baby beardies. One of them was up right at the glass clawing away and jumping around like she wanted to get out. We were talking alot about getting a baby beardie because neither of us had ever had one that young before. We instantly fell in love with her and we bought her that day.
Scat is her name. Now I know that word to some people means "poop" but we actually named her that because she would always scat away when you tried to grab her. I actually didn't know the "poop" meaning to the word when we named her, but we thought it was a very fitting and cute name for her. We absolutely love her to death. She was the cutest bearded dragon I have ever seen. She had bright colors and was so full of life and very alert. Feeding her was entertainment in itself becasue she would always try to sneak on her crickets when she was eating them.
Well the worst thing that could have happened yesterday happened. I was getting ready to feed her. What I usually do is move everything out of her tank so her crickets don't hide under everything. I had just picked her up and rubbed my nose on the bottom of her mouth like I always do and put her back in her tank. I then started grabbing things out of her tank. She has this miniature cave rock that she loved to sleep in. Basically I grabbed it and it slipped right out of my hand... She had moved right underneath it and it fell right on her back. I was in shock. Things did not feel real for a moment. I saw her sitting ther with her mouth open and eyes partly closed. I panicd and screamed for my girlfriend to come in the room. I picked her up and saw blood in her mouth. My girlfriend called my mom and her boyfriend to come over and by the time they got there she was already gone.
This has basically been the hardest thing I have ever had to go through in my life. I feel devestated, angry, guilty, sad, so many emotions coming at me at once. I haven't stopped crying since I got up today. This is the most I have ever cried my entire life. My chest actually aches right now. I couldn't work today because I'm so emotionaly drained and I just don't know what to do right now. Everyone has been telling me it was an accident and I know it was, but it still doesn't make me feel better or take the pain away. Its somthing I've done a million times, you know just moving stuff out of her tank to feed her, and if there ever was a worse time I could have dropped somthing it was last night. I feel so stupid. I feel like a worthless pet owner right now. I feel like a failure. I've been ready for my beardie Drake to pass. He is getting old, and that is part of the reason we got Scat to begin with, was to help me cope with that. Not that I want him to pass anytime soon, I love him dearly as well, but hopefully you get what I am saying. We loved her so much and we only had her for nine months. It's just so unfair! Everyone tells us that life isn't fair and I definitaly got a lesson in that last night. I absolutely hate seeing my girlfriend this tore up. She tells me its not my fault and she's not mad at me, but I still feel so damn guilty. I hate seeing her cry and being so heartbroken. She loved her just as much as I did. It just feels like a sick joke to me right now. One minute I'm just mad, mad at myself just mad and the next minute I'm sad and crying non-stop. I don't know what to do right now. I'm sitting her saying what if I did this or what if I didn't do that and it's driving me crazy! My girlfriend went to work to get her mind of stuff and I just don't feel like doing anything but sitting here in my apartment and crying. I had to cover up her tank with a blanket because I can't stand seeing her tank empty when she should be in it. I have an overwhelming sense of guilt and I just hate everything right now. She was still just a baby. My heart is aching and I miss her so much already. I just don't know what to do...
RIP Scat (Scataroo) June 18, 2011-March 7, 2012, Mommy and Daddy love you and we miss you so much.