EM, Thank you for your kind words and prayers. I do pray that Bella is in heaven and has been united with Abby. They were my babies at different times but were connected by my heart and love for each of them. I wish I would be given signs that Bella is ok and that they are together. Abby used to "visit" in my dreams. Sometimes I would hear her meow in the house. There was one time she poked me to wake me up (as she used to do often when she was with me). She told me that it was time for her to go and that everything would be ok. It was about a year and a half after she died, about 6 months before Bella came to me. She was with a black and white kitty. I woke up and it seemed so real. I couldn't figure out why she was with another kitty. I found out a few days later that my sister's cat had died the prior week. Then I realized it Sneakers was with Abby. I wish Bella would visit and I would hear her meow and feel her presence.
I know that so many people are dealing with the same as I am. I hope and pray that everyone who comes to this site can find peace in their hearts. Some days are more difficult than others. We are in some way connected by those we have lost.
Jim, Thank you for your kind words and for giving a loving home to two little fosters. A huge thank you for adopting two. I always pray that my fosters are adopted together or at least with one sibling or with another kitten so that they are never alone and they always have a friend when their families can't be home with them. Happy birthday to your babies! They are very lucky to have you. Please give them an extra kiss for me. Thank you for keeping in touch with their foster mom. Adoptions at our shelter are confidential, so I never get to meet their new family but the girls at the shelter usually tell me about the new family if they handle the adoption. I have placed a few of the kittens and will get updates from time-to-time, but nothing to the extent that you give. So thank you for that. I'm sure it means a lot to their first mom. Fostering is a lot of work and I'll be starting my 6th year. I almost stopped a couple times but if I would have, I never would have been given Bella. I will always remember your words about Bella touching the kittens noses and passing on her memories of love. Those words really touched my heart.
I also pray for all the homeless and abused babies that they all find homes and love that they deserve. When I prepare to return the kittens, they each receive a blessing that have a mommy, daddy, family that will love them forever, that they receive love and kisses every day, that they are kept indoors to keep them safe, they have more toys than they can imagine, they are allowed to sleep in the big bed, and they will always be their baby and never "just the cat" and that they more love for their entire life than they can even imagine. I thank them for being such good friends for Bella and for filling the Abby/Bella house with such joy and fun. Then I give them a kiss, put them in the carrier and cry as I hand them over at the shelter. But I know I can't keep them all and that there are families who are waiting to give them wonderful homes.
Hugs to both of you,