Awww poor Chi. Cancer is awful and I'm sure you made Chi comfortable in his last days. It is strange how we just think they will be here forever isn't it? And even though you may not think you spent enough time with him, he knew how much you loved him. You did the best you could. Everyone on here is grieving a loss of their pet-there is no timetable. So if you cry, that's okay. A hole has been left in our hearts that may never be filled.
Perhaps you can speak to a grief counselor or purchase some books on losing a pet. I think they may be helpful. It would also be nice if we knew that they'd be waiting for us. I'm just holding on hope to that.