Lrn mlr, I am so very very sorry for your excruciating loss of Duchess. There's nothing any of us can say that will help ease your pain. It's just devastating to have to make that hard decision. And unfortunately it is a decision that inevitably makes you feel conflicted. If you feel like you did it just a little bit too soon it crushes you and if you feel like you did it just a little bit too late it crushes you also. And none of us can crawl into our precious little furry loved ones minds and bodies to know exactly what they're experiencing. Please try not to blame yourself. From what you have described Duchess's quality of life had deteriorated greatly and there was very very little left to hold on to that was good. It certainly sounds to me that you made the loving, compassionate, heart-rending choice to Let Her Go, to keep her from suffering any more than she had. Be good to yourself. The grief is unbearable and so horribly Raw the first few days. I hope you will keep writing here and connecting here and knowing that we all understand how heart-rending it is to have to say goodbye to a baby and to make that decision . .wishing you much much comfort and peace on your journey.
(Sorry for the poor punctuation Etc having to post on my phone today)
-Missing Marissa deeply