Hi, I'm so sorry for your loss. I know all too well the feelings of guilt and regret. Please read my post and you will see I made lots of mistakes with my dog Norton. The truth is that none of us would have intentionally hurt our pets because we love them so much. I know you are feeling so bad at the moment but please try and forgive yourself. I am still working on getting through mine and I feel that I am slowly starting to forgive myself. My heart goes out to you for what you are going through. Hindsight is so hard because it makes us look at everything in minute detail. I spent a long time wanting to go back and do things differently but we can't and we can't help the way we were thinking at that time in our lives. The only way we can see we could have done things differently is by looking back. We are just human and we are not meant to be perfect, but when it comes to our pets we feel we have to be perfect, but no-one is. I have read lots of stores of where people have got things wrong and their pets have died so you are definitely not alone. I hope snd pray you get some peace soon. Please keep in touch and let us know how you are doing. Take care.
I live in the Isle of Man (UK time)